Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-three of Operation Achieve Anything. It never ceases to amaze me how every single time that I see a spike of interest in my sight and go on to acknowledge it, it’s like turning on the lights to see nothing but scattering crickets. Whether I mention an increase in readers, ad revenue (keeping in mind I’m literally talking, at best, a couple of bucks a day) or high interaction on social media, the next day, all of those stats drop even further below my pre-increase numbers the very next day.
Granted, also like bugs, the moment my acknowledgments go dark once again, the crickets start to trickle back in, waiting for my next confident moment to scatter once again. I mention this, not really to complain or pout, but as part of the fulfillment of yesterday’s assignment where I’m supposed to start to bury all my excuses. One of the biggest things that I feel is holding me back is that I don’t have all that great of a support system, so I rely on these numbers to justify my efforts when it comes to chasing my dreams.
Though I do still notice these numbers, they don’t really affect my mood like they used to. That said, I still use the stats to gauge where I’m at, regarding whether or not I’m really ready to promote this page as my work. This line of thinking is probably why I spend more time working away while waiting for the right moment to strike. Now, I think I’ve finally honed my writing skill to the point where I may still have yet to master the craft, but I’m good enough to stop waiting for outside signs that it’s okay to finally move forward.
There are several other excuses that I’ve been dropping over the years, but there is one I think I will always struggle to let go and that excuse is, I’m desperately seeking help. Whether I’m talking a mentor or creative partner to help me iron out the wrinkles from being self-taught, or just someone who cares to help me through my struggles that some along with my mental disorders. Otherwise, I feel like I’ll just be faking it until I make it and will never reach a point where I feel that I’m either successful or sane.
Oh well, I guess that’s just the fun of being a damaged human. Today’s assignment should cheer me up because I now get to talk about the benefits of failure!!! As always, you’ll have to wait for tomorrow to read what I have to say on the subject when I check in with my next update. Until then, it’s now that time where I sign off by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.
Talk to you soon.
The Wicker Breaker
P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.