Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-twelve of Operation Achieve Anything. I’m feeling a bit run down today because my sleep has been terrible over the past couple of days now that I’m back to the point where I can work with some comfort after close to two months of struggling through my sciatica pain in order to make my day. I’ve been so excited to be able to get to the extracurricular project that I’ve been neglecting that I’ve been up all night creating, fueled on manic energy, knowing all along that it was only a matter of time before I would crash.

Thankfully, it’s not a hard crash, and I just feel burnt out, and a bit bummed and not like another bout of depression is coming on. I’m willing to bet that one day in the very near future I’ll get to a point where I’ll eventually pass out and sleep through a bulk of my day to then wake balanced until the next minor mood swing. Though I wouldn’t really consider my current state to be a mood swing, I’m just sleepy and tired of the heat.

I also feel that a bit of my bummed feelings started when I read yesterday’s assignment about morals. The topic of morals really gets me down because as an atheist I can’t understand how this world with a religious majority, who have high horse views of their morals and can’t seem to get along with one another. They preach love and kindness of all mankind yet, I’ve often found the holy people are the less tolerant they seem to be in their hearts.

I’m also a bit of a hypochondriac when it comes to mental disorders because every time I’ve talked to a shrink, they diagnose me with something different. I mention this because I can’t remember which disorder it was, but I remember one of them having a trait where the people who have it get really hung up on morals. However, the thing is the morals they get hung up on are the ones that they’ve deemed worthy of living by and not views forced by our society or the church.

Sure, many of the morals line up with established sets of ways to live, but it’s more ala carte which can be confusing for those who need others to set the rules. For me, I think this is because I was raised with no church in my life and very little guidance and am not an atheist who once had faith decided to walk away. This allowed me to focus on what I felt was the right way to live without a preacher using their “God” to keep me under their control.

This leads to that whole thing where, when an atheist is kind to you it’s because they’re actually kind and not just trying to avoid going to hell. I can’t tell you how disturbing it’s always been to me when a religious type finds out that I don’t believe which gets them to admit that if it were for God, they’d be stealing, raping, and killing everything. It’s also very disturbing how often I’ve heard this argument.

Sometimes I think that people see me as immoral because I’m into offensive comedy, but like with the people who claim to be against guns yet rush out to watch and praise the most violent movies the day they come out, I’m a fan of the fictional form of extreme behaviors but not the reality. Even in the real world, I’ve told my fair share of off colored jokes and so have all of my friends, and I’m okay with this, but I’ve always been turned off by people who’ve had true hatred in their hearts. More often than not, these people want those who they disagree with to both have a shitty living life and then spend their afterlives in hell.

For me, this is a one and done existence, so I don’t see why there’s not more effort to make the whole experience as pleasant as we can. This might be why I’m so into isolation at this time because I can’t handle the contradictions and demented views of the people in power who should actually be our moral leaders. I mean, we now live in a world where the seven deadly sins seem to be the roadmap to success and not the cautionary list it was designed to be.

I think this fulfills the assignment for yesterday where I was supposed to share my moral code, but either way, that’s all I’ve got so it’s time to move on to the task for today where I’m supposed to explore how I handle areas of life where other’s morals don’t line up with mine.

I think I may have spoiled this task in the paragraph where I mention my opting for isolation to stay guarded in my own world, especially as I age, but you’ll have to wait for tomorrow’s update for more clarification on these views. Until then, it’s now time to sign off as usual by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.

Talk to you soon.

Sincerely,

The Wicker Breaker

P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.