Due Date: 12-13-2015
The Resolution: I know I've said this in past posts my original dream as a child was to be a stand-up comedian. I was the youngest of two for about thirteen years then became the first middle child of four. It was my job to be the comic relief to stressful situation.
I was needed a lot.
This led me to a life of constantly trying to get at least one person to laugh in any situation. I think I'm funny but not in a joke telling sort of way. My jokes are very reactionary to what's happening around me. Combine this with the fact that I'm actually very shy and you get someone who is terrified of the spotlight unless it "accidentally" lands on them.
I gave stand-up a shot last time I lived in San Diego, performing at what had to have been an illegal operation. It was a converted mechanics garage, all ages and bring your own booze. The audience was always filled with nothing but performers. At this place the show went on until every name was pulled from a fish bowl.
It was actually pretty amazing.
One thing that sucks about this year is that I've become more detached from people than I've ever felt in my life. The silver lining to this detachment is that I've grown to genuinely stop caring about those who are critical of me.
It's pretty impressive how much giving up on life leads you to have more self-confidence.
I'm going to wait until I get back to Cali but by this time next year I will have made an attempt to reboot my dream to become a stand-up comedian.
Hell the stories that I have from the resolution attempts alone are enough material to make a pretty good stand-up routine.