Due Date: 12-24-2015
The Resolution: I've never been a big fan of Christmas or any other holiday. As an Atheist I have no significant connection worth celebrating. As a Leap Year Baby, I have a weird grievance toward celebratory dates. As a depressed person who doesn’t relate to the festivities, I’ve always felt alone.
Now I appreciate the family aspect to the season. I try to plan my annual trip home to share in the celebration of the birth and the existence of two fictional characters, but that's only a recent development.
For the longest time I had no intentions of ever going back home. This led to many lonely winters. I'd get invited to hang out with friend’s families but I wasn't looking for a replacement. I just wanted to be left alone.
And I was.
Over the past few years I've gotten over my issues with home and have really enjoyed being with my family during this time but I’d love to be around them with or without a theme.
This is the first year, since my new found fondness, that I wasn't able to make the pilgrimage. I now work retail, where not only is my store open every day of the year; they no longer have shortened hours for the holidays.
In fact the store is open until midnight tonight.
It's been a little over a decade and a half since I worked on the holidays but back then I was given the option, "Do you want to work making double time and a half or do you want the day off."
Given the choice I always worked as a way to avoid the whole pity of being lonely during these times of celebration.
This year I had no choice and I hated it.
I never want to be in this predicament ever again.
When I move back to California I'll have a little extra time to find a job that I actually want and not just accept the first offer out of desperation.
1) I will not work retail ever again…
2) I will never work at a job that is open on the holidays ever again. I don't even want the option to work on these days that are meant to blow off steam…
3) I will not do anything to make anyone else have to work on these special days.
I'm going to try it for a year and hopefully continue on for the rest of my life.