#341: Give hypnotherapy a try to see if it will get rid of my stutter.
Due Date: 12-7-2015
The Resolution: Granted I don't have a traditional stutter where one gets caught up on trying to spit out one word. With my stutter I'll be talking just fine and then just freeze up completely for a second as I reorganize my thoughts to continue the sentence.
I think part of the problem is that I'm alone so much that I'm used to the high speed scattered thoughts of my inner-monologue. I think I'm also so honed in on micro-facial expressions that I'm sure I misinterpret that I lose my confidence causing me to shift directions to win the listener back.
Someday I wish to give stand-up comedy another shot, but this lack of an ability to express myself the way I see things playing out in my head is a real speed bump.
I know I've already resolved to learn self-hypnosis but being that I don't know what it feels like to be hypnotized I figure why not start with a professional.
Hopefully I don't end up just quacking like a duck every time I hear a bell rings for the rest of my life.
Update #1: The Conclusion.
I think my brain is too noisy to hypnotize. I actually tried self hypnosis several times in the past including my latest attempt as part of an earlier resolution. At best I feel like the techniques work as a form of meditation but I have yet to feel hypnotized the way it is portrayed on TV.
As I said in the initial resolution, I tried a professional hypnotherapist several years ago and even then I felt no results. My desire to truly feel like I've been hypnotized is the reason I decided to revisit the idea of turning to a pro.
Unfortunately, as I'm sure you can guess if you are following along, I wasn't able to afford a hypnotherapist but plan to redeem this failure sometime in the near future. As always, I will keep you posted on the results.