Dateline 10-22-2016

It's now been three days with very little sleep. I'm getting used to it though. I'm now to the point where I don't feel like I need sleep, which is great for me, productivity-wise. The problem is, I fear that it might trigger a manic episode which I haven't had in quite a while. Granted, I usually have more fun during these episodes but come out of them feeling embarrassed and guilty. 

The grandiose feelings that others might call confidence leave me feeling embarrassed to think that I could actually pull off one of my convoluted plans to fulfill my dreams. The guilt comes from thinking that I was worthy of fulfilling said dream. At least that's how it works now. Back when I was more social I had way more to feel both embarrassed and guilty about when these episodes would set in. This is part of the reason I've always been a bit of an isolationist and why I barely interact on social media anymore. 

Right now I feel great though. I hope that now that I have more achievable dreams any extra energy will go to good over insanity. Luckily it's the weekend and I don't have the day job to work on, while at the same time, I'm finally fully into my latest assignment. If you've been following along you know that this one has been slow to inspire me but now that I've figured out my angle it's all I can think about and that's a good thing.

Again, I hope that I can finish it by the end of the weekend, at least the functional side of it. It may take a little more time to get the aesthetics to a level that I'm happy with, but that the fun part so I don't mind.

Oh well, it's time to get to work.

Talk to you tomorrow,

The Wicker Breaker