Dateline 1-3-2017

It's only three days into the New Year and I am already feeling way more optimistic about my future. I'm still uncertain about the future as far as this country and the rest of the world goes but barring some sort of apocalyptic catastrophe, I do feel that the path that I've been building towards a better personal life now has a pretty solid foundation to build upon.

At worst, how I'm living right now is how I will spend out the rest of my time. I've got a space to myself with a bed and an area to write where no one bothers me. Sure, I'm not in an ideal situation. I don't own the space that I live and don't earn anywhere near what I need to move out but it's been the perfect situation for me to train for a new career which I wouldn't be able to do while living my old life out there in the real world.

The one thing that sucks is how the lack of stress causes stress in me. Other than the ghosts that haunt me from the past, I live a pretty stress-free life at the moment. Granted, it's a pretty pathetic existence but I am getting to live out the true shut-in lifestyle that I have always dreamed of. 

Yeah, it gets pretty lonely, but I also felt lonely when I around my closest of friends, and the masks I wore to cope with social anxiety left me feeling like I was losing my mind. Now I feel sane but bored by everything, which seems to be the goal of the average American. Hopefully, I'll be a full-on cog by this time next year!!!

Now it's time to get back to my coding course to get me prepared for my life in the machine!!!

Talk to you tomorrow,

The Wicker Breaker