Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-sixty-four of Operation Achieve Anything. One more day and it’s going to be time to introduce next year’s Operation Fish Merger which I’ll explain more on the day when I present the idea to the world so that it can ignore this effort as well!!! Well, the world may ignore it, but I’ll always have my crickets. Thanks to each and every one of you who have read any of these posts. I know it’s not as exciting as my SNL challenge, but personally, I feel The Daily Breaker is the more compelling aspect of this page.
With this site being a bunch of challenges within a ten tear challenge, all of the other content is pretty much me just goofing off, sharing my trials and errors as I go, this segment is where I really try to break down what I’ve actually learned which isn’t always the most exciting thing to promote. I will give you one hint though, Operation Fish Merger will be more focused on creativity and fun and less focused on following a self-help guideline where I can tend to get too reflective and depressing at times. Next year, I’m really going to put an active effort into being more light and fun, now that I’m passed the mourning process that started when I moved back home and am ready to try to learn to heal.
I’ve been having a blast over the past couple of days, going through and cleaning up my Facebook wall. It was sad at first because all of my posts for the past five years were depressing, even when they were trying to be fun. It totally read to me like I was just going through the motions in my pathetic effort to let the outside world know that I’m doing okay, or testing the waters to see if people were willing to play, only to be greeted with silence. The further and further I went back, the more I saw how I was back when I wasn’t faking my efforts to interact with others and was really using the platform to play.
Yeah, I had to get rid of a lot of post about my napping habits, and issues with sleep, but I it wasn’t like I talked about these two constant struggles in my life any more than other just post pictures of their food or share any other mundane nonsense. It was hilarious to see some of the posts that I wrote where it took me a couple minutes to figure out my own reference, but would often end up on the floor laughing the moment I figured it out.
Not because I think that I’m that funny, I just realized how often I write in a form of shorthand where I keep things a little vague so that specific people will get it right away, and the people willing to do the math to figure out what’s funny can appreciate it as well. I don’t do this intentionally, I notice that I do a similar thing when I talk. I think it’s to weed out the normals who I have as friends. Several times, for some of the ancient post, I finally got to experience a normal’s perspective of not knowing what the hell I was going on about and never did figure it out.
It was also a blast to revisit all of the things that I’ve done over the years which unintentionally fulfilled yesterdays task where I was supposed to just relax and reflect on the challenge from the Achieve Anything... book as this challenge winds down. Granted, I took it further by going beyond just reflecting on my book-based accomplishments, but I think it was just what I needed to end my day. It allowed by to be productive while relaxing while I continue to process my last several Daily Breaker posts.
The original plan was to stay up all night to continue to get my next set of challenges to a presentable stage. I then reminded myself that one of my New Year’s plans is to lock my personal Facebook page and walk away, not in a dramatic way where I’m going to attempt to draw attention to my exit with one final post. It’s just no longer a fun place for me to play, so I just want to leave the fun stuff to honor that phase of my life. As I said in past post, social media was vital in helping me find the confidence to post my thoughts publicly, so my wall, and all of the friends involved are too important to just straight up delete, but it did need quite a bit of cleaning first.
On top of all the fun and nostalgia, it was also very nice to see that, as one of my saved Facebook posts pointed out, “I may be crazy, but at least I’m consistent.” Since I want backward for my Facebook post deleting process, and forward for my SNL challenge, it was comforting to see the evidence I’ve been pretty spot on when reminiscing about my past. Most of the sketch that I claimed to always love would pop up from time to time, and I even saw evidence of how I was accurate when it came to time periods and event that led to my personality changes. I felt way less crazy to see that my side of the story can be confirmed.
That’s not to say that I’m by any means an innocent, or even correct with my point of view. It does provide the evidence that I need to remind me that despite the many masks that I may where deep down, there is an authentic me, who is open to hearing everyone’s point of view, as long as they are respectful when presenting their position. Either way, even if these efforts to settle my issues with my own past turn out to be fruitless after New Year’s and my end of the year enthusiasm dries up, last night was the most fun that I’ve had with my friend from the past in quite a bit of time.
Hopefully, someday, this cluster fuck of a life will pay off. Otherwise, the next twenty-four years are going to be extremely rough. Oh well, that’s all I’ve got on this subject, now it’s time for me to introduce the assignment for tomorrow where I’m supposed to just rejoice in all of the new beginnings that I find throughout my day. This is perfect timing because as soon as I’m done with my SNL viewing for today. I have to get busy putting the final touches on the project I plan to start of the first. Of course, I’ll share those thoughts when I check in tomorrow. Until then, it’s now that time for me to sign off by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.
Talk to you soon.
The Wicker Breaker
P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.