Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number one-hundred-fifty-three of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s been a pretty crappy week as far as my day job goes, but I’m very excited about the progress I’ve been making with this blog and my plans for the features that I plan to add in the very near future. In fact, I’m so excited that I plan to spend every free moment of this weekend implementing a new website look.
I’m also so excited that the feelings that my enthusiasm are bringing up play into yesterday's assignment where I was supposed to contemplate the Janis Joplin quote of the day, “Wait a minute. I can do anything,” with the task at hand being to let my ego take over for the day. Part of me fears the proposal because when my ego is let loose it can trigger a case of hypomania that can feel amazing at first as I enter a world of optimistic fantasy, only to end up in another dark place when all of my delusional dreams don’t work out.
The thing that really sucks is how these delusions of mine are very doable, I just need to be given a chance. I mean, right now, my big dream is to put all of my written work on this website after I give every piece a quick polishing draft. The hope would be that this would bring enough people to the site to where I could start earning a couple of bucks through the content that I’ve spent so much time to produce. That’s it, that’s the dream, I want to make my work available in order for others to read and all that I ask in return is for readers who like my work.
My biggest fear, that usually comes true, is that I will put in all of this time and effort only to end up still being ignored. It doesn’t help that my “support system” sucks in that they chime in when I’m up to nothing important like share jokes of funny images but then the second I bring up anything about my personal projects, I get a cricket’s response. I think this is what makes my mood swings so abrupt because this is the treatment that I get from people who like me, or at least used to before I shut everyone out.
I know, I’m sure most of this is just paranoia that comes from putting so much of myself into my work that I feel even a hint of disinterest in my writing equals a disinterest in me as well. Thankfully, I’m stubborn enough to keep going, especially considering the fact that most of these fears are in my head and I will continue to keep going until I can figure it out and am prepared to take the rest of my life to do so.
As for today’s assignment, I’m supposed to put my sense of inspiration into practice. Even though I jumped the gun and started before the Achieve Anything… book told me to do so but I do credit the book for inspiring me to start this major overhaul because I’ve been meaning to do it for a while, but it wasn’t until the first inspiration based task that I stop contemplated and actually got to work.
Of course, I’ll share more of my progress and how the Achieve Anything… book inspired me to get to work when I check in with tomorrow’s update. Until then, it’s now time for me to wrap this thing up and as usual, I’ll sign off by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.
Talk to you soon.
The Wicker Breaker
P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.