Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number one-hundred-fifty-five of Operation Achieve Anything. Here we go with another Monday to start another week. Though I got a lot done this weekend I didn’t get to as much as I wanted because of a surprise visit from my oldest sister, who just dropped by to take a break from her usual routine with her family. I could’ve continued working since she brought things to keep her busy but I find it hard to focus when there are visitors in the other room. Plus, I like when she drops by because she’s one of the few people outside the family who I live with that I actually enjoy speaking to.
The thing that sucks is how this made three weekends in a row where weekend company has interrupted my decompression time while I just wanted to be left alone. Don’t get me wrong, it hasn’t been horrible but these three weekends have been the three weekends that followed my starting a new job, making me want to seek solitude even more. It’s not really the people that bother me, it’s more the pressure I put on myself to entertain, or maybe a fear of missing out that makes me feel guilty for wanting to spend this time by myself, especially since no guest ever drops by specifically to see me.
Last weekend wasn’t all that bad because the guests in question were my mom’s husband and his family who are all kind of strangers to me but there was still that weird guest energy as opposed to most other weekends where everyone else is out and about and I have all of my time to myself. This weekend was only notable because my sister’s visit was a complete surprise to me and as a shut-in, I get a bit anxious by unexpected changes to my plans.
I know that it’s weird for a shut-in to complain about wanting to be by themselves even more, especially when I usually have full control of my time but during a standard week, I spend every weekday evening watching prime time TV with the family so I really look forward to the weekends when that evening time is also mine so that after I finish my projects, I can then do absolutely nothing while relaxing in my bed.
Either way, it’s not all that big of a deal, it just happens to be what happened. With that, let’s move on to the assignments for today. This should go pretty quick because both assignments I’m here to report on were lesson heavy but the assignments are both rather vague. Yesterday, the lesson was on how I have the power to pick and choose what I believe when it comes to what others have to say about me so I should accept the positive that’s fitting, dismiss all the negativity, and work on any valid issues to make a positive change.
The actual assignment was simply to listen for these types of interactions and note how I react. Where I used to feel like an extremely polarizing person where people either loved me or hated me with no in-between, I now feel that nobody thinks of me either way. This might sound sad but in a way flying under the radar this way has given me the freedom to explore my areas of interest without really caring what anyone else has to say. I really wish I felt more connected but sometimes I feel in order to get there, I would have to give up on my dreams which plays into today’s assignment.
Actually, there literally was no assignment today but instead, I just got a lesson on why it’s important to never stop trying. The sample was if you love to sing then sing whenever and where ever you can even if it’s just karaoke because you’re still doing something that you love. I was fully expecting for the book to then go on and tell me to put myself out there and put the concepts of the lesson to work but no, there was absolutely no reference to a task, I wasn’t even told to take the day off and so here I am.
We’ll see how I handle this vagueness when I check in with tomorrow’s update. Until then, it’s now time for me to wrap this day up so that I can move on and get to work. With that, it’s now time for me to sign off by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.
Talk to you soon.
The Wicker Breaker
P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.