Well, last night turned out to be a bit of a success. Over the past couple days, I've been struggling to get into a groove in order to start draft three of the novel I plan to share at the start of the New Year. As I said yesterday, I think part of the problem was that I was working on non-story content like the call to action for the crowdsourcing strategy that I plan to implement and the introduction.

Yesterday was my first day of reworking the actual story and it's amazing how quickly my outlook has changed. The only thing that sucks about this shift is that I get really excited about work but get a little extra depressed in my everyday life as my mood ends up matching the mood of my main character.

This is great when I am working on comedic material to where I will be in more of a silly mood but unfortunately, this manuscript is a dark comedy at best and at worst a straight up surreal drama. In either case, I also get affected by day-dreaming about the potential of putting out a successful product, fantasizing about having a place of my own where I can write until the cow come home without any outside distraction.

These fantasies can also go either way to where they can lead to either added depression from being so far away from where I would like to be or they can send me into a manic phase as I live out this new life in my head.

I know I would be much better off just living in the present but that's hard when the present is such a sad lonely place where my stories and projects are my only escape. With that said, I'm not as depressed as this post may sound because working on this type of stuff is my ultimate goal. I'm just missing the ability to earn a paycheck so that I don't have to feel like such a mooch as I battle to live the life that I want.

Hopefully, something will change in the upcoming year where I will be focusing more on my finances now that my mental health is back to a somewhat steady state following two years of bed-ridden depression.

Oh well, we'll see how things turn out but for now, it's time for me to shift gears and move on to my next part of my day. As always, I'll check in tomorrow with another update on my progress. Until then, it's now time to say good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.

Talk to you soon.

Sincerely,

The Wicker Breaker