Happy Christmas Eve to all of you who are into that sort of thing!!! I wouldn't say that I'm anti-Christmas but it's been a while since I have been more than slightly excited over this "special time of year." I'm not a religious person but I used to really love Christmas because it was the one day a year that I used to travel down from Seattle to spend some time with the family.

I would come down with my list of quirky Christmas movies to watch and spend an entire week taking a break from my normal ways. Now that I live at home and no longer as interested in film there's no longer anything special about the build-up to the family celebration. That said, I still enjoy the actual day because the little ones in my family provide vicarious excitement.

I just wish that I could get back to a place where I can get excited about anything other than being left alone to write or the day when I can afford to replenish my weed and treat myself with a potent edible. That's not to say that I feel like pot is to blame for this decline, no, over the past several years, I've lost interest in damn near everything but feel I am in the process of gaining it back.

When I left Seattle I felt dead inside, that was almost three years ago. The first year back, I was a complete mess as I continued on the same trajectory only living in a new home. Year two was filled with distractions as I attempted to figure out a new route to go. This is when I got into building apps which was fun but these ambitions left me feeling like I was giving up instead of redirecting my growth.

This year, I ended up back in my zone as the Saturday Night Live Challenge tapped back into my passion to write which eventually led me back to my true love which is writing fiction. Now that my passion is back, I'm hoping that next year will be my time to shine as far as transitioning my talents into a career. 

At least those are my hopes, which is good enough for me since I know firsthand that a hopeless existence is no place for anyone to be. With that said, I now need to move on to my next task in order to get everything done in order to enjoy the next two days celebrating at my sister's house without having this site on my mind.

As always, I'll still check in tomorrow with another update on my happenings. Until then, it's that time for me to say good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.

Talk to you soon.

Sincerely,

The Wicker Breaker