Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty-five of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s been an interesting past two days where yesterday I took my first legitimate day off from this site since I started it six years ago. Well, the first year was made up of a challenge weekly challenge, and I didn’t have The Daily Breaker segment going yet, the month or so that I took off when I first moved back home and was too depressed to function, and a little over a week at the start of 2016 when I was depressed once again and was contemplating giving up on writing altogether.
Yesterday’s time off was completely unplanned. The night before I finally got around to giving my room a thorough cleaning Which I’ve been putting off for close to a month because I was too in my head about figuring out my next move. The lack of clutter created always has a calming effect on my mind, so I opted to celebrate all of my recent progress with a box of wine. I didn’t end up relaxing at all but instead was up until four o’clock in the AM drinking while brainlessly adding marketing and layout changes throughout the many pages on this blog.
I then woke three hours later but was in no condition to get out of bed. Well, I had to get to bed first because I ended up crashing on the gigantic LoveSac beanbag chair that I just inherited. That thing is so comfortable that I opted instead to have a few more drinks to get back to sleep the way that I always do, in case you’ve never read any other of my post drinking day post. Usually, I only do this when my Wicker Breaker obligations are taken care of first but I really just needed a break.
Though this killed my close to three years long perfect attendance record, I reminded myself that my ultimate goal is to get to the point where I can make an executive decision to do whatever I want. I don’t want to be as tied to a schedule the way that I’ve become. Ideally, I would just work when I want jumping back and forth between challenges and other projects. I feel that hanging on to my pride over my persistence towards achieving my goal has more to do with my insecurities about how others see my effort. I’ve grown tired of the constant internal struggle to feel the need to justify to outsiders, who aren’t even there, how I live my own life, so, I decided to take the day off.
I did nothing but lay around on the LoveSac watching TV and drinking wine. I didn’t get a little chatty on social media, but instead of the awkward attempts to share my silly political insights, I awkwardly reached out to others to compliment them on their work or share what I thought of ideas being thrown around in their content. It sucks because I feel like just as big of an idiot because I’m so terrible at reaching out, especially to strangers online who I often think I have a better read on their personality than I actually do. I then either share too little trying to ease my way into a conversation, or I share too much making me seem mental. Then the silence that follows leads me to fear that others either didn’t even notice or think that I’m out of my mind.
This is another reason I leaning more and more towards giving up on being active on social media and keep all of my digital interaction to this here blog. I guess this sort of fulfills the last assignment where I was supposed to just celebrate winning the lottery that is life. There was no real assignment other than for me to enjoy the moment, so I did, even though I wasn’t actually thinking of this task at the time.
With that, it’s now time to introduce the assignment for today where I’m now supposed to get in the practice of being more open about the love that I have for the people in my life. I’m now sure how I’m going to handle this assignment, but since I need to get caught up from yesterday, I’ll have my next update later tonight. Until then, it’s now that time for me to sign off by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.
Talk to you soon.
The Wicker Breaker
P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.