Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-thirty-nine of Operation Achieve Anything. Yesterday was another great day of me settling into the idea that I’m actually already in the twilight portion of living out my dreams. Granted, this twilight phase can get a little confusing since I only see quick glimpses of success out of the corner of my eye that disappear as soon as I turn my head. Where in the past, I would get discouraged by these disappearances which would lead me to wake up and find myself as some loser in a room, and not the professional yet quirky writer, plugging away with fingers constantly dancing and words magically appearing on the scene.
I’m past the point of faking it until I make it because I’m already here. Keep in mind, that when I talk about making it, I’m not talking about any external benchmarks to gauge my performance. By making it, I mean that I think that I’m finally getting to the point where I can openly admit that I’m actually a fan of my own work. Not in an unhealthy way where I feel like it’s getting to my head, but up until recently, I was a bigger fan of my concepts that my ability to articulate myself while adapting an idea into content.
Even now, I still feel a little off, but at least I also feel like I’m getting close enough to where I can start to promote my latest work without the need of an asterisk to note that I still need an editor or writing coach to get to a place where I’m officially ready to share. I probably still have quite a bit of a way to go to get to the point where I feel the same comfort level with my fictional work, so that I can thoroughly dig into the rewrite process to fulfill my promise to adapt all of my old scripts into novels. That said, right now, I feel more comfortable with the direction I’m heading that I have been with any other phase in my life.
Hopefully, all of these failed early phases will actually do more for my future than what I was hoping to accomplish in the past. I always knew that none of my work was ready, again, I even started out as a screenwriter because I felt it would be a loophole to write as a dyslexic person trying to hide my amateur technical abilities. I feel if I would have gotten a taste of success back in the day that I would have been more susceptible and may have given into changes that I’d be personally against, in hopes to get my foot in the door.
Back in these days, I was collaborating with people who only cared about how to get the specific piece to work on its own so that they could have a product to work with no interest in the gigantic puzzle that I’ve always been attempt to build with my prolific amount of work. Yes, I do know how it’s essential to get every piece to a series to also work based on its own merit, but there is a way to do that while building a big picture/consistent story as well.
Since none of my old projects were ever successful enough to sideline any of my master plan. In five more years, when this ten-year blog challenge that I created to test that adage about how it takes ten years to create an overnight success, I feel like I should have the skills and resources to actually complete the opus that I have in my head before I leave this world. Keeping in mind that this isn’t about fortune and fame, but instead, it’s the tradeoff where I always planned to leave something behind as a piece of me since I never thought that I’d ever be capable of maintaining a relationship that was healthy enough knock together a kid.
I go back and forth when it comes to being sad over this fact, but I’m going to be forty-three in February, and can’t even maintain an unhealthy fling, let alone build a relationship with the stability to last. Sure this could change if I do taste success, but I doubt it. I’ll be too busy reworking the many pieces in my effort to accomplish what I set out to achieve. All of this actually plays into yesterday’s assignment where I was supposed to pay attention to the little things since when put together, the small can become very large. The example I shared not only shows that I’ve been using the logic being pitching in the book, but it also provides a look at what the payoff to using this approach might look like.
With that, it’s now time to shift gears and move on to introduce tomorrow assignment from the book where I’m now supposed to just live life to the fullest, with no real actual task. This is the third time this week that the book assigned me to just have fun and go easy, which is sort of nice considering it’s day number three-hundred-thirty-nine but at the same time, it still also feel like lazy filler to get through another day. Oh well, I guess you have to wait for tomorrow’s update to see how I handle this nothing of a chore. Until then, it’s now that time for me to sign off by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.
Talk to you soon.
The Wicker Breaker
P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.