Hey Crickets. Today makes day number sixty-four of Operation Achieve Anything. Unfortunately, I’m still feeling a bit sick from the birthday drinking binge that I put myself through over the weekend. I swear that I didn’t sleep at all last night so I feel more exhausted than anything, so, this is going to be another quick one in order to wrap this day up and crawl back into bed in hopes to feel better tomorrow.

I guess my drinking kind of plays into yesterday’s assignment that centered around a quote about how every man is made up of three characters, the one we show to others, the one which you really are and the one that you think that you are. I’ve always taken this concept quite literally to the point where I used to go by different nicknames depending on the situation or how I was feeling.

Bunker was always the party me, or in using the example above, this was the me who I showed to others. The funny guy that everyone loved to party with. A reluctant extrovert whose awkwardness was charming enough to get others to root for me even when I was being super crass. I also often joked about how Bunker got me in trouble by getting me to say and do the strangest things as if when I was him, I had absolutely zero control.

Matt was the boring version of me that I would turn on in order to get through work. This version of me was a hard working introvert who would work hard enough to get the maximum raise while staying under the radar enough to avoid the topic of going into management. This is probably closer to the real me who just wants to be left alone in order to focus on what’s important to me.

Matt Bunker or Matthew Bunker was the writer me or the me that I think I am. This me is a combination of the two, with the strong work ethic of Matt, and the eccentric energy of Bunker keeps things from getting boring. Though I wish this was the genuine me, I need a genuine taste of success to validate this dream and make it my true self.

Then again, at this rate, I may end being the writer me by default since Bunker’s now dead following the loss of my social circle, and Matt now works from home so he can be his neurotic shut-in self without having to hide from anyone to avoid the horribles sounds of workplace conversations. That just leaves the writer me and the me that my family sees when I head inside to watch TV.

Today’s assignment is another one that’s barely an assignment at all in that the book wants me to keep on keeping on with the development of my genuine self while reviewing my past few assignments to verify if I’m being open and honest in a way that sort of seems like I’m supposed to be grading my own homework.

We’ll see what I managed to come up with when I check in tomorrow with my update. Until then, it’s now that time where I sign off as usual by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.  

Talk to you soon.

Sincerely,

The Wicker Breaker

P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.