Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety-Nine, Dateline 10-26-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety-nine of Operation Achieve Anything. My head is starting to settle again which is weird considering I went to bed pretty depressed and woke up in the middle of the night feeling anxious about my day job situation. This led me to go back to sleep, and when I woke up, I no longer felt the weight of the world on my shoulders. Then, I sit down to write just in time to see that they’ve caught the guy who’s been sending out all of these bombs.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety-Eight, Dateline 10-25-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety-seven of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s weird how just a few days ago, I shared how I was starting to feel a bit more mentally balanced from all of the healthy choices that I’ve been making lately. In the past, I’ve also admitted that I feel more comfortable in either extreme because my upbringing has me more comfortable in chaos even though all that I want is inner peace and peace in general. The chaos that sends me on the highs and lows is, more often than not, external; hears that I will never figure out how to gain enough confidence to make a living of my own work, whether or not my family and friends hate me. Being balanced is the worst because the sadness that comes during the calm stems from internal pains.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety-Seven, Dateline 10-24-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety-seven of Operation Achieve Anything. Yesterday gave me a quick scare when I was notified out of the blue that I was being released from my current job. Just as predicted, there was no warning, just, you’re no longer on this project, like the last long-term gig that I did through this company. Thankfully, unlike last time when they just dropped me and left me with nothing but random, one-off task, where I was lucky to get enough work a month to live, this time they instantly offered me a role in another department within the same project.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety-Six, Dateline 10-23-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety-six of Operation Achieve Anything. Things are getting weird as I seem to be getting healthier. As I said a while back, after my last bout with sciatica left me bedridden for a couple of months, I finally got out of bed heavier than I’ve ever been in my life. Not that I was living right and fit before weight increase, I call myself The Wicker Breaker base on my joke about not trusting my weight vs. wicker furniture.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety-Five, Dateline 10-22-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety-four of Operation Achieve Anything. Here we go with another post just hours from my last one. According to my Fitbit, I did manage to fit in three hours of sleep, making it both technically and literally a new day, but I swear that it didn’t feel like I slept a second at all. Then again, I do remember a dream where I couldn’t get my stomach to stop rumbling which led everyone in a tight office space to think that I kept on farting.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety-Four, Dateline 10-21-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety-four of Operation Achieve Anything. Here I go with round to of this nonsense because the dumb fucking add on spellchecker that I use disables ctrl-z when it is activated. I love the software for the features that go deeper than the built-in spellcheck for Word, but I can’t stand their technical glitches. I just got done writing an entire post explaining how this is the first time in years that I’ve had to implement my loophole where I don’t consider midnight the end of my day but instead I see tomorrow as when I wake from my first sleep following the switch from PM to AM. When I went to cut and paste it into my blogging software I accidentally hit ctrl-v instead of ctrl-c leading all of my work to disappear with no way to get it back.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety-Three, Dateline 10-20-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety-three of Operation Achieve Anything. Yesterday turned out to be a good one where I didn’t beat myself up once over what I was and wasn’t getting to, at least after I completed the obligations that I absolutely needed to get done. It helped that my day job was down yet again, allowing me to put some time into the side paid gig that I was planning to get to this weekend. Now, instead of having to put in a full eight hours into this task, I’ve now got three days to complete four hours worth of work. This will allow me to ease my way through this weekend a tad bit easier even though I still have to fit in this paid work.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety-Two, Dateline 10-19-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety-two of Operation Achieve Anything. Last night I realized that I really need to learn how to relax. I know I am often on here talking about taking it easy on days that I was hoping to be productive. Meanwhile, these “easy going” days never take place until after I’m done with four hours worth of blogging and, more likely than not, several hours as my paid work as well. My problem is, even when I do take one of my little “breaks” I’m still continually running through what needs to be done in my head, so there’s not actually relaxation going on.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety-One, Dateline 10-18-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety-one of Operation Achieve Anything. You know how just yesterday I was saying that I was excited about being caught up on work and back on a graveyard schedule, and how I was taking a day off due to the fact that my work ran out of tasks, but I wasn’t all that concerned because I was offered a side gig that would make up for any hours missed? Well, in less than twenty-four hours, my day job still doesn’t have work, which led me to crash halfway through the night after running out of things to do. Thankfully it’s Thursday, meaning I have just one more day of just going with the flow before I get back to adjusting my sleep schedule for next week.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Ninety, Dateline 10-17-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-ninety of Operation Achieve Anything. The last few days have turned ended up work out brilliantly. First, there was the fact that I not only got all caught up on any missed hours from my day job’s system outages, but I also managed to fit in a side job and get not just caught up but ahead of my work for this blog. Yesterday was payday, so I walked to the store to replenish my food, which also knocked out all of my Fitbit steps in one fell swoop. By the time I got home, all that I had left to do was to fit in four hours of my day job.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty-Nine, Dateline 10-16-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty-nine of Operation Achieve Anything. The quest to get caught up is getting closer and closer to where I should be back to where I want to be by the start of next week. Keep in mind that when I say caught up, I actually mean slightly ahead of the game considering, other than the paid work outages that have been out of my hand I’ve had my head above the water throughout this entire challenge. Just as I have with the challenge where I’ve been watching and review every single episode of SNL once a day going on two years.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty-Eight, Dateline 10-15-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty-eight of Operation Achieve Anything. In yesterday’s post, I shared how proud I was of myself for finally getting caught up on my work both through my day job and through this blog. Right after saying that I was done for the day and ready to nap in order to readjust to a graveyard schedule, I receive an email from a secondary day job, that I thought I missed out on, telling me that I only had two days left to finish my task. This meant the day that was going to be my one break became another day devoted to work.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty-Seven, Dateline 10-14-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty-seven of Operation Achieve Anything. First off, I’m glad to be saying good morning again as opposed to good afternoon since that is a sign that I’m getting caught up on my work enough to get to the post this early. As of right now, I’m all caught up on the time that I missed from taking Monday off to mourn the loss of my dog. Not only that but I also made up for a couple hours that I lost due to issues that were outside of my control, and I even managed to finish tomorrow’s SNL review in my effort to rebuild my safety net.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty-Six, Dateline 10-13-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty-five of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s Saturday, and as much as I would love to go easy and sleep off this exhausting week, I think I’m a day away from making up for my living wake time that I spent with my dog last weekend. Today, I should be able to make up for taking Monday off, and then all I need is to watch and review at least one more episode of Saturday Night Live and start to rebuild my backlog of prepared content.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty-Five, Dateline 10-12-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty-five of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s time for another post, but this one won’t be as long-winded and ranty as the one from yesterday. Right now, I’m feeling extremely burnt out from trying to catch up on the work that I put off last weekend to spend some quality time with my dying dog before having to put her down on Monday. Adjusting to life without my pets, and major source of evidence that there is other life on this world while I live out my shut-in existence has also been pretty draining.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty-Four, Dateline 10-11-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty-four of Operation Achieve Anything. I’m getting so fed up with this country and its greed and for reasons that nowhere near new as these issues have been building for years. This isn’t going to be a political rant, this is more of an issue that I have with banks, corporations, and all the other assholes that horde the wealth of this nation. This isn’t about wanting free shit, this is about not wanting to be charged extra just because you are poor.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty-Three, Dateline 10-10-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty-three of Operation Achieve Anything. Things are starting to stabilize as I settle into my new life sans dog. Life does seem a bit more empty and silent without the reminders of life in my room, but I think I’ve grown used to constant loss. That’s not to say that I’m fine with it, but there’s nothing I can do but move on. With that, I’m going to cut the intro short and jump right into discussing today’s assignments.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty-Two, Dateline 10-9-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty-two of Operation Achieve Anything. Last night was the first night that I spent without my dog for close to four years, and it was very weird to see how many little things would trigger a sense of loss. I know I always go on about being a shut-in, but that’s just because I like to hide out in my safe little space and not that I want to be alone and she was my primary source of company.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty-One, Dateline 10-8-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty-one of Operation Achieve Anything. I just got back from a walk to the store, and I have to tell you, wandering around a residential neighborhood is not the best activity to follow up putting down a pet. For some reason, I thought that it would get me out of the space where we spent her last couple of day, only to instantly end up bummed out while watching the unaware spending quality time while walking their dogs. I even saw one guy pull up to a house with a tiny puppy and balloons as almost a cinematic reminder of the cycle of life.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Eighty, Dateline 10-7-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-eighty of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s Sunday, which is the one day a week that I try to take easy in general but I’ll be doubling down on the easiness as this is the last full day that I get to spend with my poor little dog that will be put to sleep tomorrow morning. Again, it’s crazy how it was just a little over a month ago that she went from a dog that was starting to slow due to age into an old dog that’s falling apart from her benign cyst evolving to become cancerous.