Resolution #115: Test This Unscented Stink That's Designed To Attract Women...
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Date: 4-25-2014
Due Date: 4-25-2015
Resolution: I haven't actively sought out a relationship in quite a while. Even when I have put myself on the market it's hard to tell.
I've been aware of my neuroticism ever since I was young, fearing acceptance as much, if not more than rejection. At least with rejection, it's quick and you only end up losing someone that you think you may like, rather than anxiously awaiting the day you lose the one you know you love.
I'm fully aware this is no way to go through life, but that's the way my brain works. It seems I either spend my time pining away over unrequited love, running from unwarranted affection, or completely alone.
I'm working on being a better person to myself as much as I'm trying to be a better resident of Earth, hence this whole resolution thing.
I'm nowhere near the point of resolving to actively seek a relationship, hopefully, this will be one of my later resolutions. Since I'm experimenting with foolish products that promise magical results, I figured why not test this unscented pheromone that promises to attract women via the sense of smell.
Other scented products offered the same results but then who's to say it's not an overall improvement of odor and not this unscented scent that is doing the work.
Some day within a year I will buy a bottle and wear the recommended dosage until it runs out and share what happens.
Result #115: Over The Past Year… I Haven’t Been Around Enough People To Properly Test This Love Potion… Even If I Bought It…
Update #1: The Conclusion…
Date: 4-25-2015
Even before I committed to the idea of giving up my job working in film, I felt I was on the verge of a very reclusive phase in my life. That's part of the reason I came up with this daily resolution idea.
I know how committed I am to completing a challenge… so I chose this daily experiment in an attempt to avoid disappearing into mid-life depression… while I attempt to figure out what to do now that I've given up on my dream.
In the process, I've become so focused on trying to figure things out that I've pretty much given up on any form of a social life.
I had hopes that I would be out of this rut by now, at least to the point where I'd be out socially enough to test out these pheromones. Unfortunately, this is not the case.
Even if I did purchase a vile of this love potion, I can't think of one situation in the last year where I would have tried it out.
I feel like I'm getting close to figuring something out, but it's still going to take a lot of work. Maybe once I get past the point of anxiously avoiding questions I don't have answers to, my enthusiasm to be around others will return, and then maybe I'll give this love potion a second chance.
