Dateline 12-26-2016

Alright, Christmas is over, now all I need to do is make it through New Year's so that life can normalize for a few months until next year's festivities. Don't get me wrong, I don't despise that family based holidays as I do the celebratory events but a lot of the same logic goes into why these "special" days don't bring out the enthusiasm in me the way they do with others.

As I pointed out in the past, I don't like the celebratory holidays because back in the day when I had friends, the people that I wanted to be with to celebrate were the same people that I hung out with on a regular basis, partying the same way we would any other day of the week only amongst amateurs drunks that got in the way of the real fun for me.

With the family holidays, it's kind of the same in that I used to be real close to my family. When I was growing up we spent a lot of time together and there didn't have to be an event to warrant a gathering. Even when I was young I preferred the impromptu moments spent with the people that meant something to me because I could sense the pressure put on by others who would really push for the perfect day that was only different due to a theme.

Now that I'm older, I only see my family on these special days and though it is great to see everyone there is an event based wash over the interactions that feel more like conversations in passing over anything with real meat, which, again, is fine but kind of heightens my awareness of just how detached I have become.  

This is why the 2nd of January is my favorite day of the year. It feels like clocking out on a Friday; the furthest you can be away from Monday and you can drop your work persona for a while and just be. 

Sorry, this ended up being so bleak but it is where I am at the moment. I should be in a better mood tomorrow.

Talk to you then,

The Wicker Breaker