Dateline 6-25-2016

I never claimed to be a morning person. It usually takes me about an hour to settle into the idea of facing the day. Since I work from home and set my own schedule, I rarely have to talk to anyone until I've completed the morning rituals required for me to commit to the woken reality of life. It takes a little longer now that summer is setting in and heat is factored into the equation.

Today, I had to watch my nephew, which is never a problem because he's a pretty good kid who I find very entertaining. The only problem is that I had to go straight from sleep to human interaction which happens so rarely that I forget how grumpy I can be minus my mental transition from sleep.

I didn't really act out on anything but I found myself annoyed with everyone even after watching the boy was no longer my responsibility. I felt bad because no one was even doing anything to deserve my inner sense of annoyance. Luckily I didn't act out on any of my inner thoughts because no one seemed to notice. I just didn't like this inner anger that really wasn't justified.  

So, the fact that I'm grumpy first thing in the morning isn't what inspired me to write, what I find interesting is that it didn't just take time to get me out of this morning funk. As I said, I'm normally ready to face the day after about an hour of prep and I was around my family for about three hours and though my inner annoyance lessened, it was still hanging out in the back of my mind. 

Now that I've had an hour to myself in my own space, I feel perfectly fine with the world. I'm now wondering if this is why I never really worked well in the 9 to 5 world? Since I would wake and head straight to work I never settled into accepting my waking existence and never had that time to myself until the day was already done. 

Alright, so this may not be a ground-breaking observation but I needed something to write and this is all that could come up with. That said, if I suffer from this I'm sure others do as well which is leading me to wonder if wake and go lifestyle is why the world is so full of grumpy people like me.

Oh well, that's what I got for today.

Talk to you tomorrow with whatever dumb topic I come up with.

- The Wicker Breaker