Dateline 7-12-2017
/I don't know why but I feel extra tired today. It's weird because I actually went to bed pretty early and then went on to sleep-in at least an hour past my normal waking time. I find this happens often, where I fit in a lot of sleep only to drag as for half the day as my brain remains cloudy from a dreamy haze. I bet it has to do with waking up during a different phase of the sleep cycle that I'm used to because usually, it doesn't take all that long before I'm up and ready to go.
It could also be that my usual slightly sleep deprived mind triggers a touch of the mania in my bipolar head. Not in an over the top way as it's been a real long time since I've gone days without sleep but with delusional thoughts about how to change the world, filled with extra energy without the help of any drugs.
The minor mania that I'm talking about is kind of the ideal state of mind for me. At that stage, my brain is active but not in a distracting way where this well rested head has me staring at the wall while trying to write a sentence instead of just letting the words flow. This note, for example, feels very forced when compared to a post where I feel that I am on my game.
It also doesn't help that nothing all that exciting has happened over the past two days leading to my current string of rambling posts. There's also the fact that I've been writing these daily post for over three years and it's hard to always come up with something to say so I just let the muscle memory in my brain do its best to stumble on to the insight that I need to start my writing day.
I think I saved this rambling post but then again, who's to say whether or not I accomplished my goal because these are just notes to no one but I don't know if I'd have it any other way, at least when it comes to this segment of my site because I wouldn't mind if the challenge parts were more interactive and hopefully I'll get there someday.
Tomorrow, I'll be heading up to my older sister's house for a three-day stay which, the change of pace will hopefully lead to some a couple days of interesting posts but we'll have to wait until Friday to figure that out.
Until it's time to get to work getting ahead of my work to be able to take the time off.
So, talk to you tomorrow with another update.
Sincerely,
The Wicker Breaker