Dateline 7-28-2017

Oh my god, this has been a rough past couple weeks. First of there was my brief encounter with a mini bout of depression that has since gone away after my paycheck came through and I was able to afford to be back to the task the that has been keeping my mind too preoccupied, not allowing my thoughts to have the time to venture into my world of inner misery. 

Though I wouldn't say that I ever got all that deep into the down feelings this round, I did feel the potential for a pretty good pity party where at least I might have caught up on some sleep. Ever since payday, I've been back to my regular schedule and the "I'm wasting my life," brand of self-hate went away pretty quickly.

The thing that sucks is, not only have I been dealing with these mental concerns over the past several days but my body has also decided to start to give out on me as well. It all started with a queasy stomach that was triggered by an afternoon of day drinking that seems to have evolved to feel more like a stomach flu to where I have to constantly rush off to the toilet.

On top of the stomach/butt issues, I've also seen the return of a lower back pain that hasn't been an issue for years. This is more of an annoyance since I don't really feel it until I attempt to move around, and even then I eventually get used to it as I eventually loosen up.

So now, the sense of depression is gone, and the stomach is settled and the back is still giving me discomfort, which would be fine if that were all to the story but no, life seems to really like to pile it on as I woke this morning to a swollen face and a tooth that hurts like hell.

Brain, back, and tooth are the trifecta of misery that has been haunting me on and off for at least the last decade in a half, this is just the first time that I've can think of that I've had to deal with all three issues at the same time, but at least the brain stuff has almost past minus the misery that comes and goes in those brief moments where the other two issues grow to be unbearable. 

Hopefully, all of this will clear up soon because as I said, ever since getting back to my productive routine, I'm back to being excited about the upcoming projects that I have planned out. 

Oh well, we'll see what happens and as always, I'll be sure you keep you posted on what does.

Talk to you tomorrow,

Sincerely,

The Wicker Breaker