Dateline 9-12-2017

I just realized that I've been talking about how I was planning to start a new project for the past week or two but don't know if I ever mention that's it's not a blog based venture, so in the extreme off chance that you follow my progress enough to expect a new section of this site the lack of a new tab is not a sign that I haven't started.

That's not to say that I have actually started as I still have a few mental hang ups to work through first. You see, the project I'm talking about is the rewriting of my first novel. I know that I have mentioned my plans to work on this as soon as my schedule opened up but I'm not sure if I made it clear that the rewrite and project were one and the same in some stupid attempt to make it sound like a secret while talking about it at the same time.

I really don't know what I was expecting because even though I plan to share the novel through the site as soon as I'm done but that's going to be months from now so there was never a reason for a special announcement until I actually have something to share.

Either way, it's not that big of a deal, this is just a quirky brain fart that I thought I'd share just in case anyone was interested. If you are one of these people then I guess you are also interested in the mental hang up that's blocked me from getting started.

First off, the plan was to start yesterday following a three-day break after completing all the phases of my SNL Review Prep-Work Plan that I've been working on for the past several months. Friday was my first day off but I found it hard to transition into casual mode because I haven't had any paid gigs weekly which makes me feel the need to go overboard with my personal projects in an effort to justify my life.

On Saturday I drank myself into weekend mode as I got crossed drunk to the point where I couldn't focus enough to write. Sunday was a recovery day where I laid around my room like a sick dog. Neither of these days worked to restore my energy because there was no relaxation involved to where yesterday I needed a break just to recover from my weekend.

Being able to tap into relaxation mode is only a tiny aspect of my hang up because more often than not, I feel more productive when I feel a little sleep deprived. The big mental hang up is my belief that my fictional work is much stronger when I write in the middle of the night which goes against the nonfiction schedule that I've grown to accept where I have everything done by 7:00 in the PM.

I don't know if I now have to figure out a way to split my day with blogging in the morning and rewriting at night or if I need to attempt to break the superstitious belief and attempt to figure out how to write anything no matter where the sun or the moon sits in the sky which will probably be the route I opt to go.

I really do need to get over this hang up because I do know that it's an irrational belief that my brain works better when the rest of the world around me is asleep even if this is a more romantic outlook of my hobby. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I ever plan to stop writing at night, I just want to quit telling myself the story that this is the only time that I can get creative things done.

Alright, I need to stop writing about why I'm not writing so that I can finish off my daily obligations and then either procrastinate the day away or finally knuckle down and start the rewriting process. With those options in mind. I'm not all that concerned if I take a couple more days because I know the moment that I break the seal I'll be productive until I am done.

As always, we'll see what happens and I'll check in tomorrow with whatever does.

Sincerely,

The Wicker Breaker