Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Thirty-Six, Dateline 8-24-2018
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“Anger is a momentary madness, so control your passion or it will control you.”
Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-thirty-six of Operation Achieve Anything. I can’t believe it’s already Friday again, it seems like it was just yesterday that I was excited about it being another weekend allowing me time to take a break. I really need to do some relaxation time this weekend because I’m feeling burnt out from maxing out the hours I’m allowed to work in a week. I know that many people will roll their eyes at these claims of exhaustion considering this maxed out time is only thirty hours a week but you have to remember that I put three to five hours into this blog seven days a week.
Then again, I’m sure there are not many people other than me who care what I do with my time. It’s funny how I still can’t work through the issue of worrying about what others think of what I’m doing with my life. I don’t care what anyone thinks of me as a person because, for the most part, people just leave me be. I guess what I get hung up on is that no one I know personally even casually keeps up with what I do, leading me to feel like they feel it’s a waste of time.
I by no means expect that my friends read all of my work, but it would be nice to not always deal with the constant surprise when I answer the dreaded question, “What have you been up to?” Again, I’m okay with people who are supposed to be close not keeping up with every post, but by this point, unless you are a complete stranger, you should at least know that I blog. This is what’s bummed me out my entire life, I do really feel that people are cheering me on, but I feel like I have to become successful to strangers to get my loved ones to actually follow along.
Though discouraging, I’ve grown used to the fact that in order to be taken seriously by friends I need to be successful first. I don’t think I’m unique in feeling this way, I’ve worked in a creative industry for years and have met many talented people who put their entire heart in every piece of their work only to get no acknowledgment in the end. This might be why I’ve opted for isolation while chasing my dreams because I am going to work toward this goal of being entirely self-sufficient through my written words until I finally figure it out or die.
This might be a bit dark, but it fulfills yesterday’s assignment where I was supposed to prepare myself to forge through the most difficult of times. If the above intro isn’t enough, I’ve got over two decades of dedication under my belt which you might see as a sign of never-ending failure but I’m almost entirely self-taught, so I’m fine with the idea that it’s going to take extra time to hone my skills. Right now, my focus is on earning money to hire the people I need to bring me and my work to a more professional level than some amateur on his own trying to figure it all out.
As for today’s assignment, the Achieve Anything… book is now shifting its focus to anger management which is an area in my life that I do need some help with. Though I’m pretty good at keeping my cool around others, when I’m all by myself with no one there as a witness, I can rage out over the tiniest of things. I’m sure this is because of all of the frustration that I suppress while trying to be the public loveable me, who’s been in hiding for the past several years.
I’ll delve more into the topic when I check in tomorrow with my next Operation Achieve Anything update. Until then, it’s now time for me to sign off as usual by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.
Talk to you soon.
Sincerely,
The Wicker Breaker
P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.
