Operation Achieve Anything: Day Two-Hundred-Seventy, Dateline 9-27-2018
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“I am learning all the time. The tombstone will be my diploma.”
Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number two-hundred-seventy of Operation Achieve Anything. One final note on my recent bout of concerns as to whether or not I’m putting in the right amount of effort I put into my day, that I feel stupid for just now figuring out. The real reason I’ve been overthinking this topic is that my day job has been extremely unstable over the past couple of week. In fact, I’ve had more days with no work available than I’ve had days where I actually been able to do my job.
Though I don’t expect this gig to last forever, I was hoping that it would at least last until my SNL challenge is over which would free up a lot of time and stress to focus on multiple projects that might have a better chance to turn a profit. So, the fact that I fear the end of this day job ending several months earlier than I had planned, I’m now putting twice as much pressure on myself to figure out a replacement income stream through my own work, making it easier for me to feel disappointed in myself if I feel like I’m slacking at all.
Meanwhile, mentally and physically, I feel better than I have in quite some time. I started to walk ten-thousand steps a day with my Fitbit to keep me on track. I also started a Keto diet that has me down twenty pounds from last month. Yesterday, I added Keto specific supplements to the mix, and even though I’m fully aware that it’s probably psychosomatic, I’ll accept the sense, false or not, that I’m already feeling the benefit. On top of all that I’ve been getting over seven hours of sleep each night for the past three evenings.
Of all of these things, I think the sleep is helping the most, but then again, I’m probably sleeping better with the help of the new diet and exercise plan. The only thing I don’t like is this new lifestyle has seemed to turn me into the coffee craving monster that feels like garbage until I get my first sip of that hot caffeine. I still find it weird how when I only get four hours of sleep, when I wake I feel like I’m instantly ready to go. Then, when I get tons of sleep, all that I want to do is sleep even more. Then again, in the four-hour a night example, I feel the need to nap all day, while the seven-hours plus schedule has me feeling wide awake once I get past that initial morning grog.
Now my only fear is that the extra energy will send me into another mini-manic episode like I just experienced about a month ago that ended with a bit of a crash. Then again, that last manic attack wasn’t that bad and when the crazy energy dropped I just went back to feeling normal without falling into the deep depression that usually follows. Yes, there were a couple days when I was sad that I couldn’t keep up the crazy enthusiasm and still feel sane, but even that cleared up after a day or two, instead of sticking around for weeks.
This kind of plays into yesterday’s assignment where I was supposed to choose if I’d rather be right all the time and live an easy life, or if I would prefer to be tested and see if I can learn from my failures. This is one of those cases where I would pick the latter but mainly because I know no other way. Nothing’s ever come easily to me, which led me to worked up this whole myth that I love this chaotic life. In reality, if I were honestly given the option, I’d prefer a much easier life where I can relax and just breath instead of constantly feeling the need to justify my existence to the rest of the world that isn’t even aware that I’m here in the first place. That said, not having the choice, I don’t mind the route that I’m on.
So, that’s all that I’ve got for yesterday’s task making it time to move on to the task for today which is an exact duplicate of an assignment from a few months ago during one of the Achieve Anything… book’s repetitive “learning is important” themed sections. Once again, I’m supposed to note every new thing that I learn throughout the day whether or not it’s significant to me at all. As I was saying yesterday, it’s not that I feel that this assignment is terrible, I’m just sick of the recycled content.
Oh well, I’ll come up with something on topic to say when I check in with tomorrow’s update. Spoiler, it will probably be a lot like today’s where I crow-barred my own insights into fitting the task at hand, but we’ll just have to wait and see. Until then, it’s now time for me to wrap this one up as usual by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.
Talk to you soon.
Sincerely,
The Wicker Breaker
P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.
