Dateline 10-16-2016

I'm glad this week is over. It's not that it was a horrible week, I just found myself in a haze that left me feeling completely uninspired. I'd have brief moments where I felt the haze was lifting only to end up staring off into nothingness until the haze returned. I'd try to talk myself out of the haze in these daily posts, but the repetitive mantra only solidifies that I am faking it when I don't fully know what making it would look like anymore. 

Now that I've given up on my dreams and am setting new goals, I no longer have anything solid to grab on to when I start to feel discouraged. Where I used to succumb to the haze, I would retreat to my world of fantasy, picturing where I want to be until I truly believed that I could pull it off. Now, that fantasy world is evolving to the point where it takes a lot more effort to get back on track.

I know, excuses, excuses.

I'm not really looking for sympathy on this matter, this daily post is just where I go to work through what is on my mind and right now this happens to be it. My plan for tomorrow is to finally start my next Android app assignment that I've been procrastinating on. I know once I do finally start the process my inspiration and ambition will return and I won't be as mopey until I fall into my next funk. 

Though I don't think the ups and downs of life will ever go away, I feel like writing this stuff down really helps me get some perspective and as a result, the downs don't get as deep and don't last as long when they do arise. 

That's all I've got for today.

Talk to you tomorrow,

The Wicker Breaker