Dateline 10-20-2016

I'm not looking forward to the next couple weeks until payday comes and I can renew my medical card because if things play out like they did last night, I'm not going to get any sleep until then. Though I started using medical marijuana for a back injury, I now mainly use it to promote sleep. 

I've had horrible insomnia my entire life. It came in handy when I was young because I was able to work multiple jobs, go to school and still have the energy to fit in a social life. It also led to a lot of problems as I genuinely blame insomnia for my alcohol abuse and dangerous dances with pills. I fully credit marijuana for helping me ween both of these vices out of my life.

Sure I still drink from time to time and one might claim that I'm just replacing one vice for another but unlike my boozy/pilly solution to sleep, I've felt near death when it comes to weed. I've also never felt like crap the day after smoking and I've never felt out of control. With drinking, I would start early, one, because I liked it but, two, because drinking gave me energy in the early stages of drunkenness that I would have to power through to get to the point of passing out. With weed, I see it more of an end of day treat that I smoke right before I need to sleep where I get to experience the feeling of relaxation. 

My card expired about two months ago and the final batch I purchased lasted until the night before last. That shows that I'm also saving money with this sleep aid as well as it feeling like a healthier choice. Yes, it would be nice to sleep naturally but I'm 40 now and I have yet to figure it out, and even if I did know how, I'm fine with my relationship with marijuana unlike my ever-questioning issues with the drink. 

The break might be nice though because my tolerance is pretty high right now, so I look forward to the welcome back buzz that comes with time off. It might help that I'm now inspired by my assignment and have something to work on while I'm waiting for sleep.

We'll see how things turn out tonight.

Talk to you tomorrow,

The Wicker Breaker