Dateline 10-7-2016

Last night I watched a very interesting documentary about Hillary Clinton and Donald Trump that I found on the YouTube. It's called The Choice 2016 made by Frontline which I think is a PBS show being that they are the ones that are hosting the video. The thing I like about it is that I didn't feel that it was fear-based, there are no undertones of conspiracy, no finger pointing or side picking. From what I saw, this is an impartial documentary about the history of these two people that, whether I like it or not, one of who will most likely become our next president.

Granted, this documentary didn't win me over to want to vote for either of these monsters but it did give me a better understanding of what makes them tick. This documentary goes way back to when they were both children and goes all the way up to at least their nomination. I was busy working for the first half of the show and fell asleep toward the end so if you are interested I would recommend watching it on your own over listening to the insights that I took away.

The main thing that I learned is that these two are both still the people they were as children trying to please their fathers that were both supportive but very strict. Hillary had one way that she was at home and another way she was at school. Trump had a strong drive but was a bit of a trouble maker leading him to be the only one of his siblings to be sent away for school. All of their action seem to follow the same patterns of how they dealt with their families growing up.

With Trump, my main takeaway is that his father raised him to be very competitive saying there are only two types of people in this world "winners" and "losers" and that there is no room for losers. Trump and his father would make fun of his older brother didn't want to go into the family business and instead opted to be a pilot. Trump and his father discredited this brother's accomplishment by referring to him as a glorified bus driver. This drove the brother to drink and when he died, Trump's response was that his brother just wasn't a "killer," Trump's preferred term for winners.

With Hillary, it seems her whole life is about hiding, but not really in a people-pleasing way. She acted one way around her family and was the complete opposite amongst her peer. That's pretty common but I feel it is why she doesn't seem to have a sense of a true identity that I think got worse after hooking up with Bill.

I say this because the two seemed like equals when they met. When they got married she kept her name and job as an attorney. Then Bill went and won his first run for office. Things were still good until the reelection process when Hillary started to get more vocal. The public didn't take this well because she wasn't the traditional politician's wife. After Bill lost, Hillary gave in and started to fall in line and play the role of a politician's wife, changing her name, focusing more on her appearance and toning down her role in her husband's career (at least publicly.)

The thing is, it didn't seem like she was pressured to do this but opted to do it on her own strategically in order to get to where she wanted to be in the future. It worked but it also seemed to eat her up inside. I personally feel that Bill wouldn't be anywhere without her which sucks but in the process of doing what it takes to get ahead, she may have lost what who she actually is which is why she seems so private, impersonal and flip-flops on a dime.  

As someone who suffers from identity issues, I feel sorry for her if I am correct in my reading of the situation but I think the damage has been done. The personality that she has landed on is very untrustworthy and find it dangerous to feed this inner ego that hated having to hide for so long that may have started out with good intention but is not bitter and alone as a prisoner in her mind.

Again, I'm not an expert and openly admit I wasn't even paying enough attention to this documentary to speak with any sense of authority. I just thought this was an interesting show and wanted to share what I took away from it. 

I'll probably watch it again someday and if I do I'll let you know if I come up with anything to add. 

That's all I got for now. 

Talk to you tomorrow,

- The Wicker Breaker