Dateline 9-4-2016

I'm finding that now that I've shifted my focus from writing fiction to writing code I no longer spend as much time in a world of fantasy. When thoughts pop into my head, I no longer ride them out in an attempt to find the story. I do continue to spend a lot of time day dreaming only now I think in technical terms that are deeply rooted in reality.

Sure, this is probably better for me mentally as my new goals are actually achievable on my own, but I really miss the time I used to spend living in fantastical worlds of wonder. Though I do feel more grounded in reality I also feel more bored by existence. 

Don't get me wrong, I really do enjoy my new hobby. I do have fun putting together the puzzle pieces in proper order to get an app to work just the way I want it to, but there's no real narrative to hang onto as in my attempts to explain my life. There are no fictional friends to spend time with as I work, just battles with logic and syntax while alone in the dark. 

I said this before and I'll say it again, I can't wait until the day comes where I'm past the training process and can return to working in a world without the distraction of having to reference guides that take me out of the state of Zen I feel when fully focused on a project. 

Once I get to that point I hope to blend all of my passions to finally create a reality I can be proud of. 

Now, it's back to the training, which again, I do find to be fun, just in a different way. I should be done with this assignment in a couple days and as always, I'll keep you posted on my progress.

Talk to you tomorrow,

- The Wicker Breaker