Dateline 1-30-2017

It's the start of the new week and I feel a little lost. It's not that bad though, I just need to figure out my day now that I'm done with my first set of classes. I need to find another stable work from home gig to be able to afford my next Nanodegree. I did have a short term gig but it was even shorter than I expected. 

It's days like this where I end up spinning my wheels only to end up nowhere near my target. There's part of me that just wants to work on my personal projects while I wait to hear back from the companies that I applied to. It's at these times when an aspect of my life is not nailed down that I find it hard to stick to a schedule of any kind.

Sure, I could just wait it out. I have a couple paycheck coming in that will hold me over until March and I'm pretty sure that I should be able to find something to meet my minimalist needs by then, but there's just that ration voice in the back of my head with very valid views on what my true priorities should be. 

The problem is, every time I try to sit down to work on a personal project, my mind won't allow me to focus on the task at hand. No, my every thought comes out scattered as I get lost in trying to figure out a permanent solution to my very limited financial needs during this time of training for what I hope will be an actual career.

I can't wait to finish off this transitional period of my life so I can actually get back to living. Oh well, I fired off a couple more applications this afternoon. Maybe that will be enough to ease my guilt of not living up to the expectations of the traditional cog in the machine. I feel like I am so close to living the life I want to live while also being a productive member of society, but no matter what, it's going to take a little more time.

We'll see how the rest of the day turns out and I'll keep you posted as to what I find.

Talk to you tomorrow,

The Wicker Breaker