Dateline 2-7-2017

As I sit here once again stuck in limbo as I search for the resource I need to advance in my attempt to start my next career. I recently got let go from my part-time, low-paying but consistent work from home gig that was my main source of income to finance my schooling. It was a contract job that ran dry and now I'm struggling to find a replacement. Since I'm so broke, I can't start my next set of courses until this happens.

The sad part is that as I sit a search for work, I constantly think about what I really want to do with my life and the real answer is that I'm doing it. Though I openly admit that I'm still in the process of finding my voice, this blog would be the ultimate day job, if only I could figure out a way to create even the slightest bit of income.

Whether it be screenwriting, blogging, or just writing jokes, I often wish that I started much earlier but then when I think back, I realize that I've been doing this stuff since high school. The problem is, I didn't pay attention in school, which leave me feeling like an invalidated writer to this very day.

It's this lack of confidence and desire for guidance that's holding me back from being happy. I really wish that I could just be happy with right now, but it seems impossible when the only solution is to settle into normalcy which seems like a fate worse than death, especially for a Nihilist with no plans of leaving behind a legacy that doesn't see any point to the rat race.

Again, I don't really want all that much out of this world. I just need a place to write, food to eat and a comfortable chair, all other luxuries could be covered in my mind as I fictionalize my attempts to obtain them. I guess in a way, I have that right now, if I could just get past the freeloading feeling from not having to pay rent, or to earn the bare minimum to cover it.

Now it's back to my non-writing day of looking for an income stream that doesn't fulfill me. As always, I'll keep you posted on my progress and check in tomorrow with where ever new news I come up with.

Talk to you then,

The Wicker Breaker