Dateline 5-23-2017

Great, now I'm feeling in a much better mood but now it feels like my mind is closed off to the content that I wanted to create as I felt depression coming on. I do think that I can get back into while not depressed, but it's going to take a little time to figure out how to do so without access to that frame of thinking.

I really wish that I could be one of these people that claim that their mood has nothing to do with their quality of work but I do genuinely feel that I write more interesting work when my head is in a darker place. I think this is due to the fact that when I do go dark the escapist part me takes over when I'm sad which allows me to explore far more distracting ideas that get my brain working in a way that I just can't seem to tap into when I am feeling safe and comfortable.  

Because of this blog, I feel like I've gotten past the point of needing to feel depressed to be in order to do any writing at all. Back when I only focused on screenwriting, it would take me months to get through a script if I was happy but could knock out a feature length script in a week if I was feeling down and needed to get away from the world. 

Now, I feel perfectly fine doing my challenge no matter what mood I'm in. The only part that I struggle with are these Daily Breaker posts because I really want to open up and explore deeper topics other than what I did the day before which may be the major hurdle in this mission to find my blogger's voice.

I'm not all that worried that I'll never get there because I know I will keep plugging away until I finally figure it out but it is super frustrating to feel right on the cusp of a solution only to have happiness be the thing that pulls the progress apart.

Oh well, as I said, I pretty sure that I will get to where I want to be some day so thanks to any of you who stumble upon this page and follow my progress in any way.

Talk to you tomorrow when I'll have another update.

Sincerely,

The Wicker Breaker