Dateline 8-14-2017

What is a person to do when they are stuck in a game that they don't want to play and there is absolutely no way to escape the reach of the rules no matter where you try to go on a planet that's falling apart?

This isn't anything new. I've checked out of societal norms way back in my adult teenage years where I lost faith in the world and started to become suicidal. In the process of slowly taking my own life, I learned that it's not my actual existence that I had a problem with. In fact, I actually enjoyed being me but finding my fit in this world that I don't agree with has been so overwhelming from the start that I constantly feel like I'm almost ready to give up and throw in the towel.

Whether it's religious beliefs, political views, or even takes on normalcy I have yet to figure out how to navigate this world with so many rules while everyone else is yelling the importance of fighting for freedom while at the same time demanding more rules that further their specific cause.

Meanwhile, I just want to be left alone without whatever game you're playing to affect my life in any way. As it is, I live in a world where I am considered broken because I'm past a certain age and still don't want to settle into what others would consider a normal life where all of my time is supposed to be devoted to everyone else but me.

Yes, this is coming from someone from a privileged part of the world but we are living in a time where we have the technology and resources to where if we were to change the primitive game that we're locked in we could create a world where a majority of the Earth's citizens would be getting by just fine.

I know, I know, this is an unachievable goal of a dreamer but even the fact that having this as a fantasy leads to nothing but eye rolls from people who also agree this would be nice is all the evidence that I need that we are never going to get it right, so I don't know if it's more apathetic to just give in to "normalcy" or to just not participate at all.

I really don't know the answer to this so I am just going to keep doing what I do. As always, I'll let you know what I do end up doing when I check in tomorrow with another post.

 Talk to you then,

The Wicker Breaker