Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-Four, Dateline 12-10-2018
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“You cannot change anything in your life with intention alone, which can become a watered-down, occasional hope that you’ll get tomorrow. Intention without action is useless.”
Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-four of Operation Achieve Anything. I really need to stop beating myself up for opting to have fun over the weekends and end up getting a little extra chatty on social media as I reminisce about the days when I used to have friends. It’s just that ever since the 2016 Presidential election these platforms now seem so fickle that I’m worried that I might slip up while making one of my jokes and end up on Yahoo headlines for reasons I don’t want. Not that I ever say anything all that outrageous any more but you just never know these days.
Plus, in general, I rather my online social interaction better represent The Wicker Breaker webpage which I’ve toned down a lot since I started it. During the first two years, I was still pretty proud of my degenerate lifestyles and wanted to share my drunk stoner exploits while avoiding the outside world. I then evolved to become just a weekend warrior, only smoking legal weed in the evenings to help my insomnia, which is the main reason I used to drink daily in the first place. The extra sleep then helps with my anxiety which I’m beginning to see has really lead to a much calmer me in general. This is also what led year three to be my rock bottom year, where I struggled to figure out how I wanted to deal with this evolution going on in my brain.
The last two years, ever since starting the My Saturday Night Life, has genuinely felt like a rediscovery of myself. This is probably the real reason why I get nervous after each random weekend bender when my brain does devolve back to my old ways of thought when I was much more fun. Since I’m still not entirely grounded in who I actually am as this new version of me, I get nervous every time the I feel like I am defaulting back to old ways. This is why every other week I feel the need to explain myself whenever I do opt to drink when really my drunken efforts to reach out, misguided or not, shouldn’t be of much concern. I should be more concerned by how desperate the sober me is to silence myself other than through this blog.
It’s as if I’m a member of KISS and TheWickerBreaker.com is my makeup, allowing me to have more control over how I am seen by the world. These drunken nights filled with social media rambling are like the band when they would play so crazy that they’d sweat most of their makeup off almost revealing the men behind the masks to the world. One of these days’ I’ll learn how to merge all of these persona’s together using only the pieces that I actually love. This can be hard considering how the better sides often counter the negative to make them shine more like gold.
Oh well, at least I’m in a place where I really do feel like I’m achieving growth, which actually fulfills yesterday’s task where I was supposed to share if there is any movement in my life or if my existence has grown to be stagnant with no change at all. With that, it’s now time to introduce the assignment for today where I’m supposed to share if I’m actively making progress or if I am stuck playing games of intention where I just hope to achieve my goals someday.
As always, you’ll have to wait for tomorrow to read what I manage to come up with to say. Until then, it’s now that time for me to sign off as usual by saying, good day and good luck to you and all of your projects.
Talk to you soon.
Sincerely,
The Wicker Breaker
P.S. Below are links to my novel, which I plan to promote as part of Operation Achieve Anything, as well as a link to where you can buy the book that is providing the structure to this project in case you would like to purchase it in order to play along.
