The Daily Breaker: Dateline 1-5-2021
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Good Evening Crickets…
It’s been five days into the year… and I have to say that I’m glad that I decided to get back into blogging this year… before my two-year sabbatical… started to realize that my writing went from being therapeutic to being straight-up therapy… which was fine when it came to this blog because it’s reality-based… but the surreal mesh of varying levels autobiographical interpretations that make up my fictional work had me questioning the reality of everything…
Then there’s this inner ear issue… that I’m now thinking has been going on for years… adds to the fun by throwing off my equilibrium while rattling my brain by amplifying any electronic device that creates a buzz… like my computer’s fan that I always just thought was an unavoidable modern-day annoyance… in the past… when all the vibrating/buzzing would become too much to handle… I’d escape into the fictional worlds in my head… using the excuse that I was working through a story…
Having no stories to escape to… I had to finally face all the fictionalized battles that I’ve been hanging onto for far too long… the sad thing that comes with burying many of these issues is that I’m starting to forget all of the details from my past… to the point where I now feel like I have a memory problem… which is tough… because I’ve always been a goto person when determining the accuracy of anyone’s tales from the past…
I’m also finding it hard to hold on to pop culture information… yeah… part of it is that I’m getting old and am no longer trying to keep up with the kids… but… I’m talking more about the fact that… I can’t remember who was kicks off of last week’s Ru Paul’s Drag Race… that I just watch… when I used to be able to remember the order of elimination for every reality show that I’ve ever watched…
Okay… it’s not that bad… but it is frustrating since I’m known for my memory… it now can feel like I’m disappointing everyone when I can’t answer questions that I would’ve been able to in the past… I’m fine with this memory loss though… considering how much it contributed to my depression… reliving every mistake I’ve ever made… every night before going to bed… but… now I go to sleep quickly because I only have one day to reflect on…
Maybe it’s just me… trying to find the silver lining… but… I feel like this Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind situation is freeing up my brain’s resources that I can now fully focus on my work… I just need to find out how to metaphorically defrag my head once the disc clean process is complete…
Oh well… that’s what I’ve got for today… have a good one… until I check in again tomorrow!!!
Sincerely…
The Wicker Breaker
