Good Evening Crickets…

Here we are… at the end of another day… and this one was a rough one… first off… I woke up nice and early… like usual… ready to face the day… but was a bit anxious over an appointment with a new therapist… because I hate having to explain myself to people who will just tell me that my experience is wrong based on a thirty-minute conversation about my life…

The appointment didn’t go so bad… but it also went exactly how I thought… I explained how I’ve been diagnosed as bipolar in the past… and how I agree with this diagnosis but think that there is a lot more… only to have all of my input as to what think be dismissed as the therapist went on to defend the bipolar diagnosis… right after telling me how labeling isn’t all that important… and then go on to talk about a treatment plan…

I can’t for the life of me figure out why the mental health field is so against full evaluations… I’ve been getting this same response for the last twenty years… I get told that they have to get to know me before making any sort of call… then give me a follow-up appointment for six months down the road… while dismissing my input every visit… only wanting to talk about the pills…

At least this time I only have to wait two weeks… and this isn’t a pill doctor so I might have an easier time getting point across with a person who might remember who I even am between visits… I do have to talk to another pill doctor though… but I’m hoping that now that I know that it’s not their role to give a shit about my actual problems and only care about the meds… I’ll be better at explaining the symptoms that I’m struggling to cope with…

Oh well… I guess we’ll have to wait and see how it all turns out… it’s a good thing I’ve trained myself to think of life more like an old TV show where every day started… then the middle part was all the same… only a little different… and the show could end on an up note or down note… but the very next day… everything was back to normal… with no real through-story to connect each day… because thinking like this helps me at least start my day in a better mood…

And with that… it’s time to wrap up today’s episode… in order to get back to that early morning fun… when I can’t wait to face the day… and hope that tomorrow’s show will be a good one… and not a shit show like today… that only got worse after my appointment… but it’s over now… and it’s also time for me to get high… which helps me reboot… as always… I look forward to checking in again tomorrow…

Sincerely…

The Wicker Breaker