Dateline 5-15-2016

After yesterday's post I remained unmotivated until about 4:30 in the PM. Part of me wanted to waste the day away doing nothing but I also wanted to continue my class on how to build Android Apps.

The class itself is sort of lame. The teacher is using software that is no longer available but the concepts are the same in the new go to software, so the that is just a small issue. The bigger issue is that most of the coding classes feel more like you are just following along, typing the same thing as the instructor without really learning the why's of what you are doing.

This is pretty common as all of the programming languages have a huge library of codes that would be impossible to cover everything. Some courses are just better at explaining the tools being used and sharing where you can learn more. This guy's not that good at either but he does seem to know what he's talking about.

I kind of feel bad for criticizing the course because I could never teach. My brain just doesn't work that way. I grasps concepts easily but I struggle at translating my knowledge to share with other.

I think part of it is that I take in so much information throughout the day. I watch a lot of documentaries, listen to a lot of podcast that explain current events and history, and take a lot of classes. When I learn a new thing there's entire back catalog of information that goes into why I accept or deny new information.

Sure this is how everyone experiences the world but I think some are better than others at sharing all the steps involved. I don't think I'm all that concerned with others understanding how I come to my conclusion so when I'm put on the spot to explain I get overwhelmed because I know that I can't communicate all the little and barely relevant information to get someone to understand anything the way I do in my head.

I also have the low self-esteem issue of thinking that I'm dumb and I get it and if I get it anyone should be able to pick it up. This leads me to get confused and frustrated when others are confused and frustrated by my training style.

Wait...

How did I get here?

Actually I know in my head but can't explain it.

Anyways, the software I'm using to build Android App uses a lot of computer resources so I've spent all week optimizing my computer to run faster when the program is running. This has kept me busy but I haven't gotten much done. This is why I was unable to just relax yesterday and felt the need to actually work on projects now that everything is up to date.

So, yesterday from about 4:30 in the PM on I worked on class projects and now feel motivated to spend most of today doing the same.

That said, I'm going to stop rambling and get to work.

Talk to you tomorrow,

- The Wicker Breaker