Dateline 6-15-2016

There was the longest time where I was waking up early. I liked that a lot because I would get up around 8:00 in the AM and finished all of my daily obligations before noon. I know, it's not a lot of work but getting done that early left me the rest of the day to take my classes.

During this time, I was also going to bed a lot early than usual but that was fine since I stopped all work at around 7:00 or 8:00 in the PM to spend the rest of the evening with the family before falling asleep around midnight.

Now that I'm back to writing at night, I don't fall asleep until 3:00 or 4:00 in the AM. This means I'm waking up later in the day and have less time between my obligations and TV time with the family. By the time I head back to my space I'm ready to write. 

This means that even though I am getting more stuff done, I have less time for class and I'm not sure how I feel about that. At first, I was annoyed because it sort of feels like I'm taking a step back and am chasing old dreams which is getting in the way of my pursuit of new goals.

Now, I'm trying to find a balance of both which I've managed to pull off just fine over the past couple days. I just need to work it out so that I'm not beating myself up mentally since I'm not making money at any of this nonsense that takes up a bulk of my time.

The thing that is really stressing me out is the neither strategy is a guarantee that I will ever be financially secure. It sucks how much money plays a part in validating this otherwise productive life. 

I hope to figure something out soon because I'm tired of living a life of potential with no rewards. 

Oh well, I guess it's time to get to work.

Talk to you tomorrow,

- The Wicker Breaker