Dateline 6-2-2016

Last night as I was lying in bed I started to think of what I was going to write today. I often do this as I try to sleep and often come up with great ideas for things that I want to try to share. I often think of ideas that I think will be great at the time but I either forget about the idea when I awake, second guess the idea as a stoner thought that was far more interesting at the time of conception, or back down if the idea is to blow-hardy as if I'm claiming that I have the answers to anything. 

After all this thinking I usually end up just rambling about what's going on in my head or what I ended up doing the day before. It's rarely all that exciting, often repetitive and never what I set out to write from the start, which is kind of my over style as a writer when I stop to think about it. 

Whether I'm writing short form or long form, I know where I want to start, have a general idea of where I want to end, have a few loose ideas that I want to hit on the way while I just wait to see what hits me to connect all the dots.

I definitely don't think that this is the ideal way for all writers to work but it is the way that works best for me. This is why I often get into arguments over style vs structure in which I feel either work as long as the story is interesting but I've studies story for so long that personally I find structure based storytelling to be the least interesting thing on the planet.

 I grew up a fan of film so I've seen The Hero's Journey played out in every possible way. Throw in all the explosions, fights and fornication you want but when you boil down any blockbuster you'll find the same handful of beats; guy doesn't want to do something, guy ends up having to do that thing, just when he seems to be on the right track everything seems to fall apart until he gets his act together and saves the day. 

Some movies do this better than others and some do it worse, but that's all there is to a vast majority of the stories that are out there. Even though I'm against this structure in my own work, it's impossible to avoid, especially when it comes to writing for film.

This is why I've given up on screenwriting and am trying to find another outlet for my love of sculpting with words.

Which is also why I built this site.

I know my stuff isn't always that exciting especially now, when I don't have a themed experiment to work on, but I'm still exploring the blogiverse to see how I fit in. I've said it in the past but it bears repeating; I don't think the content I am writing is meant for now even though it's written for an immediate medium.   

I've always had a fascinated fear of the mundane. The day to day living of life bores me to death so I've spent most of my life trying to spice up even the most lucrative of experiences. I've spent endless hours thinking about how to spin my endless hours of banality into quirky tales of intrigue. 

I think this is why I like telling stories of miserable people living ordinary lives in interesting ways. My "heroes" rarely hero and never save the day but when all is said and done I hope the audience is at least cheering for my characters because they can relate to the reality that some dog's days just never seem to come.

Because of this realization, I am growing to see this segment of my site as something to look back on when I either reach my dreams or fail hard at every awkward effort. After all, I've never been able to live in the present and as a writer, we're told to write what we know.

For those of you following along at home, thanks for watching me get to where I'm going and for those readers from the future, this is how I got to where I am.

Talk to you tomorrow,

- The Wicker Breaker