Dateline 6-21-2016

When I started this site the plan was to constantly have a project to report on as I attempt to find my blogging voice. I started with the Southland Tales project where I had a weird but focused topic to write about on a weekly basis. After that, I stepped it up to the 365 Days of Resolution, in order to fulfill this experiment meant writing on a daily basis but again I had experiments to report on so it was easy to come up with content even though I struggled to find the time. 

Though I loved what I was doing, the lack of external validation left me feeling very discouraged. This got me down to the point where I contemplated giving up on writing altogether but the whole point of this site was to test the adage about how "it takes ten years to make an overnight success." 

Granted this concept failed me twice over when it comes to the two decades I devoted to writing screenplays but I'm a stubborn person and even though I feel everything is pointless I'm not one to give up on my dreams. Even if I go silent about something I love; I'm secretly plotting, in the back of my head, ways to achieve what I want. 

This is why I kept writing The Daily Breaker posts even though I've back off on the experimentation until I can figure out a way to make a living on my own terms. I do plan to go back to being a project based site but I need a way to make money to finance these adventures.

For the first half of this year, I hated the content I was coming up with to consider a post. Some post were pretty good but more were just fine but a bulk of my writing was just plain trash. I was just going through the motions hoping to be struck by inspiration.

I don't know what it is but I've been feeling good about my posts from the past week or two. I think part of the deal is that I'm starting to genuinely stop worrying about expectation in any way. Where I used to worry and wonder who's reading this nonsense, I'm now more concerned with getting my thoughts out in a way that works for me.

I still feel like I'm far away from finding my voice but I do feel like I've made it to the next step while continuing to make forward progress.

Now it's time to get back to work.

Talk to you tomorrow,

- The Wicker Breaker