Dateline 7-17-2016

I don't know why I have such a hard time keeping my room clean, it's not even like it gets all that bad. My main source of mess is clothing on the floor from letting thing lie where they fall when I change, the fact that my bedding refuses to stay on the bed, the occasional packaging from online purchases and recycling from the various beverages I drink throughout the day.

I think that there are three things at work at it's not really that I'm a lazy person. First, it's the fact that the mess always starts out small and builds very slowly over time. Next, I have a high threshold for disorder and genuinely work well with organized chaos, even though things can get a little cluttered, I always know where everything it. Finally, I can get too focused on my own little world, working on my projects, that the reality of filth can go unnoticed for quite a while.

I wish this wasn't the case because even though my space is always tolerable to me, I do feel a little more relaxed at the end of the day when I finally step away from my computer to wind down when everything is in order. 

I cleaned my room today to accommodate potential company so now I'm set for another week. I would claim that I was going to put more effort into straightening up, but I know me, and this is just sort of a cycle I'm stuck with that I don't think will change until I find/create a stable life. 

For now, it's time to get back to work, building what I hope is a path to a comfortable life.

As always, I'll keep you posted on my progress.

Talk to you tomorrow,

- The Wicker Breaker