Dateline 10-3-2017

I wish I could go back to how I was feeling last week, enthusiastic about my efforts to rewrite my first novel which led me to feel more optimistic about my future and the world in general. Unfortunately, the world and I are not on the same page as both the news events of the past several days and the public's reactions leaves me feeling that this period of history is only going to get worse before we see any signs of positive change.

I'm pretty confident that this is going to be the case because I've lived over a decade with these concerns yet I was dismissed every time I would bring anything up, usually by people with an "If it ain't broke don't fix it," way of thinking.

That's not to say that I was constantly screaming about a falling sky, for the most part, I've always kept my political views to myself because I never felt affiliated with either party and have ala carte views on policies leading party line followers to feel that I was inconsistent or wishy-washy.

Rather than put up a fight with people who don't want to be bothered by things they disagree with, I usually opt to stay silent and watch while world problems continue to escalate with a fairytale of a narrative that it's the people and now our leadership's fault that we're seeing such a decline, leaving me to feel like it's hopeless.

So, not only do I feel sad about the current state of the world, I feel even worse that these world events are widening our divides over what needs to be done now rather than drawing us closer together to help us heal which I feel used to be that silver lining.

I don't know if what I just wrote has any value to it at all. I just feel stuck feeling down now that I'm watching the news again after avoiding it for a couple of months so I decided to use this post to work through what's going on in my mind. The only problem is, my internal censor that limit's my political talk turned this into a meandering meaningless mess.

Oh well, whether or not you agree with my message or negative outlook on the quality of my efforts to commit my thoughts to words, I still have to publish something, so I'm just going to run with it because it's not the worst thing I've ever shared.

As always, I'll talk to you tomorrow with another update.

Sincerely,

The Wicker Breaker