Dateline 4-12-2017

I was really hoping that this week was going to be an inverse of the last where I started out optimistic only to have the rug pulled out from under me that comes from the depression that comes with poor sleep. I thought that maybe this week would be the week that I turn it around again as these dips in enthusiasm definitely don't last as long as they used to.

The start to Monday was a little rough but I instantly started to feel better after posting my gripe and getting out there to face the day. Being that I took a week long break from walking, due to feeling down, I felt that adding activity back into my life might be enough to give me the positive boost that I need or at least help me get some better quality sleep.

The start of Tuesday actually was the inverse but the end of the day was the inverse as well. I woke feeling great and got right to work and could feel my enthusiasm as it started to return. That is until the end of the day when I was reminded how no one cares one way or the other when it comes to me as I once again felt lonely in a crowded room full of noise.

The thing that sucks is that I know I'm probably just being over sensitive but it would be nice to feel that somebody actually cares.

Oh well, that's all I've got for today. I think I'm going to watch today's episode of SNL and then crawl back into bed to see if this built up depression can trigger a deep day-long slumber that will reset everything.

Who knows? We'll see what happens.

Talk to you tomorrow,

The Wicker Breaker