Dateline 6-21-2017

Yesterday ended up being a mixed bag. First, the morning was great, though I didn't get much sleep the night before, I was running on a high from hanging out with someone new for the first time in what seems forever. 

I kind of slacked through the first portion of the day, napping on and off as I took forever to get to my SNL review for the day, which was hosted by Don Rickles, and ended up being my favorite episode of the season and definitely top ten of all time episodes that I've seen to date.

I watch the show, took a nap and went on to write the review. These naps weren't all that steady, being the deadlines for my day kept me from fully giving in to sleep but I was also running off two, possibly three hours sleep from the night before. 

By the time I got everything done, I had to get some real sleep because I was so tired that I could barely function do to my head nodding as I dozed off for micro-moments of sleep. I lied down, finally ready to get a taste of slumber and was about a half hour in when I heard a tiny fist pounding on my door.

I was sure it was my nephew wanting to swim for the second time in the day, but I just rolled over and ignored it but I could feel a grumpiness growing because this interruption came right when I was about to achieve the calming rest I needed to refresh my sleep deprived mind. 

I also knew that it would take me at least another half hour to get back to this state and though I didn't have this type of time I had no other option but to give it a shot. Then ten minutes passed and right when I started to settle in again, I get a text that my oldest sister is at the house and everyone wants me to come in.

Though I love seeing my sister and her kids, the way my anxiety works, I can't stand surprise drop-ins especially when it is a crowd because the growing introvert inside me just needs some time to prepare for being around some much noise produced by a room full of people.

When I joined the group, I swear the first hour of conversation was between my mom and two sisters where they just went on and on about mascara which got the grumpiness growing because I could have used the time for the sleep that I needed to make me not feel like a grouch.

Eventual, the time came where we moved from the backyard into the house to be entertained by prime time TV.  This is where my annoyance grew to be justified because there were ten different loud conversations going on when there weren't even ten people which led to endless questions about what was going on in the show we were watching.

I was going to say if people weren't in conversations, they were on their phones but a majority of the time it was both so no one was truly following anything that was going on while having plenty to say about everyone. 

Normally, if I was rested and warned that it would have been this type of night, I would have just joined in but instead, I was stuck in a mindset where I just wanted the calm that I experienced the night before and my silent focus didn't go unnoticed and my nonparticipation in noise making made me feel like a jerk.

Again, the whole night would have been different if I just had a little heads up just like everyone else in the house got. All of that said, the night was fine, it's not like the chaos came from people arguing and fighting. I was just tired and disappointed by the fact that I ended up grumpy on what started out as a wonderful day.

Oh well, it's over. Now it's time to get to work as I have two reviews to do today to free up my time for another escape into a more relaxing world of a lazy day on the couch watching the new Netflix GLOW show with my new friend by my side.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Sincerely,

The Wicker Breaker