Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty-Nine, Dateline 12-25-2018

Good evening crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty-eight of Operation Achieve Anything. I hope you all had or are still having a good Christmas. I just got home from my oldest sisters after two days with my family, and I am desperate to get some sleep, so this is going to be a quick one. Despite my typical issues with depression during holiday times, I think this may have been the best Christmas with the family in quite a while, where it did actually feel like it was about spending time with the family and not living up to the expectations of the event.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty-Eight, Dateline 12-24-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty-eight of Operation Achieve Anything. Happy Christmas Eve everyone, two more days until I can finally feel safe that all of the holiday stress is over. It’s not really my own personal stress that bugs me, it’s the feels of pressures from the others who want everything to be perfect that I feel that make me feel anxious. I have my own perfectionist issues to deal with, which is partially to blame for why I’ve locked myself away from the world, and need everyone else to be calm while I continue to try to figure things out.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty-Seven, Dateline 12-23-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty-seven of Operation Achieve Anything. Things have been a little shaky but fun over the past couple of days as I start to worry that my latest bout of enthusiastic optimism is actually the start to another manic episode. Then there’s the other side of me that wonders if I’ve ever been manic at all. I’m starting to think that all of this time I’ve just unable to regulate my excitement and accurately explain my grandiose ideas. I get it since I can get extremely excited over the tiny pieces evidence of forward-movement that can lead to visions of a landslide of potential if only a couple of my efforts would stick that others just don’t seem to see, or at least not through the filters of hop that I use.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty-Six, Dateline 12-22-2018

Good evening crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty-five of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s time for my second Daily Breaker post for today that will get me caught up from taking yesterday off. As soon as I finish this, I just need to watch and review an extra episode of SNL, and I will be completely caught up and breathe without any sense of anxiety from feeling like I’ve let down the challenge. Again, we’re talking one day off after three years without missing a single day. I hate how even though I’m fine with it logically, deep down inside, I will always see the challenge will be completed with an asterisk.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty-Five, Dateline 12-21-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty-five of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s been an interesting past two days where yesterday I took my first legitimate day off from this site since I started it six years ago. Well, the first year was made up of a challenge weekly challenge, and I didn’t have The Daily Breaker segment going yet, the month or so that I took off when I first moved back home and was too depressed to function, and a little over a week at the start of 2016 when I was depressed once again and was contemplating giving up on writing altogether.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty-Four, Dateline 12-20-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty-four of Operation Achieve Anything. Over the past couple of days, I’ve been focused on the fact that at some point over the weekend, it felt like a flip was switched, and I’m starting to feel like a, somewhat, content person for the first time in my entire life. Up until whatever this recent change started to set in, I was always more focused on the hopes of where my efforts would lead me, all the while, ignoring the accomplishments that I’ve made as a borderline illiterate who’s dedicated his life to teaching himself how to write.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty-Three, Dateline 12-19-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty-three of Operation Achieve Anything. Yesterday I pointed out how I’m finally starting to feel like I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing and not just practicing for the day when I’m ready to introduce my work to the world. All of the concerns over the typos from the past that make me look unprofessional went right out the window as started to see each flaw as a step to get to where I am like the scars that riddle my body.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty-Two, Dateline 12-18-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty-two of Operation Achieve Anything. Yesterday was an amazing day because it may have been the first time I ever sat and wrote my daily post minus the guilt that I should be doing something better with my time. Granted, I used to barrel through this guilt on a daily basis, working away for no pay while avoiding my friends and family. It really sucks just how much on income is required to justify an existence. You’d fall out of your chair if you knew just how little money I’m talking about, but tomorrow marked the day that I felt confident enough in my future to comfortably consider this blog my full-time job and not just a hobby that I hope to flip some day.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty-One, Dateline 12-17-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty of Operation Achieve Anything. Last week turned out to be a pretty exciting week with ever increasing signs that next year is going to be a fun one. Not that I’m waiting until then to get the ball rolling, but between the holiday depression and anxiety over the anticipation of starting next year’s challenges, I can’t wait for the planning phase to part ways so that the real action can begin. Granted, I’ll probably end up a bit let down when things don’t take off as quickly as I see things playing out in my head, but that’s just part of the fun of chasing fantasies.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Fifty, Dateline 12-16-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-fifty of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s Sunday, and my head is fried from being from being a bit extra wordy throughout the week as I anxiously await the upcoming New Year while sharing my hopes and fears of what's to come. My hopes are high because throughout this entire year I’ve been seeing continuous progress with only a couple of slip up which is rare. Typically, my ups to downs ratio is pretty balanced which is where the fear that all of my efforts to push forward will end up being for not.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-Nine, Dateline 12-15-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-nine of Operation Achieve Anything. Wow, this has turned into a pretty interesting morning. Over the past couple of days, I’ve been feeling a bit down over the fact that I feel like I’m on the cusp of bringing in enough of an income through this site to not have to find a replacement for the part-time job that I just lost. Though this aspect is actually a good thing, the fact that my safety net funds are about to dry up has me feeling extremely anxious over how I will handle the next couple of months since I really don’t want to do another job hunt. This feeling of being on the cusp has been my life’s curse, so I tend to get a little down when I start to feel optimism beginning to swell.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-Eight, Dateline 12-14-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-eight of Operation Achieve Anything. Yesterday I shared my plan to give up dealing politics on social media since I started avoiding the subject at the start of the week and instantly began to see the benefits. Keep in mind, when I say deal with, I’m not just talking about the time when I give in to the urge to respond to someone else’s political comment or make a political post of my own, I’m talking, avoiding the topic altogether. I’ve been muting anyone who posts anything on the regular that gets me worked up to the point where I want to share my two cents while knowing my input won’t change a damn thing.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-Seven, Dateline 12-13-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-seven of Operation Achieve Anything. I just realized that back in 2012, I made a post on Facebook where I referenced the old adage, “If you don’t vote then you can’t complain.” I joked that if I agreed to this deal, I would never complain about politics again in exchange for giving up on this stupid two party game. My biggest issue with the US Presidential election is the false sense of choice, both by the system that set up kill any third or fourth choice and the citizens who claim how vital it is to pick one of the two pieces of garbage that we’re being sold. Meanwhile, both option A and B end up ruling in favor of profit over the people.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-Six, Dateline 12-12-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-six of Operation Achieve Anything. Last night, when I finished up my work for the day, I thought that I hit the “restart and update,” notification that randomly popped up, with the hopes that my computer would be updated and ready to go when I woke up. Turn’s out I had to click “OK” one more time, leaving me to have to wait two hours for said update to take this morning. I wish my computer would have given me a warning that this would be an extra long one considering the fact that I was only expecting this process to take about fifteen minutes like the past couple rounds.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-Five, Dateline 12-11-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-five of Operation Achieve Anything. I’ve been feeling myself slowly slip into another phase of depression over the past couple of days. Part of this has to do with the fact that Christmas is approaching and I typically suffer from about holiday-based blues now that I no longer feel as close to my family, outside of my sisters and mom, as I used to back when I was a kid. It just feels too weird hanging out with strangers who used to seem extremely close. It doesn’t help that it’s a family day, and I never saw it in my cards that I’d have any kids, so I do get a bit bummed out while watching the little ones at play, knowing that I will never have one of my own to play along.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-Four, Dateline 12-10-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-four of Operation Achieve Anything. I really need to stop beating myself up for opting to have fun over the weekends and end up getting a little extra chatty on social media as I reminisce about the days when I used to have friends. It’s just that ever since the 2016 Presidential election these platforms now seem so fickle that I’m worried that I might slip up while making one of my jokes and end up on Yahoo headlines for reasons I don’t want. Not that I ever say anything all that outrageous any more but you just never know these days.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-Three, Dateline 12-9-2018

Good evening crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-three of Operation Achieve Anything. It’s been a while since I’ve produced one of these daily ramblings while it’s dark out. This morning, I woke nice and early as usual, and being the I bought a box of wine for last night, I finished up the leftover booze in hopes that I would get back to sleep to wake around noon. I do this often now that I’m just a weekend warrior and not a daily drunk, only typically, I get my blogging obligations out of the way first. This morning, I just couldn’t wait because I was extremely desperate to get back to sleep to hide from the day.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-Two, Dateline 12-8-2018

Good morning crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-two of Operation Achieve Anything. Last night I finally got my act together and fit in two SNL viewing to bank an extra review so that I can get back to work with less stress as to whether or not I will make my day. Up until Thanksgiving, I would typically be one day ahead at all time so that each morning when I woke up, I was actually posting my review from the night before. I would then have the option stay ahead of the game by watching and reviewing my next episode in the evening, or put the viewing off for twenty-four hours if I need a break, or in the case of an emergency.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty-One, Dateline 12-7-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty-one of Operation Achieve Anything. Here we go with another morning where I have nothing preplanned in my head as I sit here struggling to come up with something to say. Yesterday was a day where, due to what seemed to be a billion changes in plans, I ended up working way later than I wanted and didn’t leave myself enough time to relax enough to just muse during my wind-down process for the day. This led me to stay up later that I wanted and wake later in the day as well. It’s amazing how I can’t seem to stick to a sleep schedule for longer than a month.

Operation Achieve Anything: Day Three-Hundred-Forty, Dateline 12-6-2018

Good afternoon crickets. Welcome to day number three-hundred-forty of Operation Achieve Anything. For the first time in at least a week, I woke up this morning, a little extra late, feeling completely uninspired as to what I wanted to say in this post. I think this is possibly because I’ve been a little extra rambly over the past couple of days and have hit my maximum word count. It probably also has to do with the fact that I’ve been spending every second of my spare time cleaning up the older content throughout this site to tidy it up for my New Year’s plan to finally start to actively promote this page as my job and not just a long-term hobby.