Dateline 10-17-2016

Alright, no more procrastination, today I'm finally going to start my latest Android app assignment. I went to bed nice and early last night, woke up nice and early this morning, finished all my work and even fit in a nap already. Now I'm well rested and have no excuse for putting this off any longer. 

Dateline 10-16-2016

I'm glad this week is over. It's not that it was a horrible week, I just found myself in a haze that left me feeling completely uninspired. I'd have brief moments where I felt the haze was lifting only to end up staring off into nothingness until the haze returned. I'd try to talk myself out of the haze in these daily posts, but the repetitive mantra only solidifies that I am faking it when I don't fully know what making it would look like anymore. 

Dateline 10-15-2016

Well, last night ended up being pretty fun. Over the past year, I've been getting increasingly quite on the social medias, partially because I don't feel as connected to the world as I used to, and partially because I don't want to join the noise of experts spouting what needs to be done and how everyone else needs to change to accomplish these goals. I miss the days when the Facebook was more fun.

Dateline 10-14-2016

Last night I filled out my mail-in ballot and am happy to be done with my part in this shit show of an election. It actually ended up being more fun than I was expecting because this was the first time I put a real effort into looking into every choice I made.

Dateline 10-13-2016

Well, yesterday ended up being a lost day and there wasn't even any drugs and/or alcohol involved which is the normal root of such wasted time. Other than my daily obligations I did absolutely nothing but give in to the compulsion that I was griping about in yesterday's post. I gave into depression and spent the entire day in a mindless haze as I continued to try to conquer this dumb game that I am currently obsessed with.

Dateline 10-12-2016

What a frustrating week this has been so far. It hasn't been all that bad but I just can't get out of my head making it next to impossible to focus on what I am doing enough to feel that I am making any progress in my efforts to be productive. I wouldn't say that I'm feeling all that depressed right now my mind is just somewhere else. 

Dateline 10-11-2016

Damn it, these debates have led me to fall hard of the wagon of doom and gloom based entertainment. I guess other's would call it news but it all seems so fictional at this point that I see it as nothing more than a choose your own adventure thriller, especially since I despise both options that are being crammed down our throats.

Dateline 10-10-2016

Alright, the weekend is over and I got my rest. It was pretty nice, I spent two days away from my computer... well... not fully but my time sitting at my desk was limited to writing my daily post and playing a couple games while waiting for inspiration. Other than that I didn't think about work, school or side projects which even when I claim to take a "me day," I usually end up working on something to boost my feeling of self-worth.

Dateline 10-9-2016

Last night I started to watch the series Stranger Things. I got about halfway through the series and really like what I've so far. I like the story, tone and overall feeling of this show but I found it weird that I'm not fully on board with the show and I don't really know why.

Dateline 10-8-2016

I'm still at a loss for things to write about so I'm just going to make a quick garden update. It's been a while since my last update due to the fact that most of my plants died during one of the summer heat waves. I currently have two plants left and am about to attempt to start another batch. 

Dateline 10-7-2016

Last night I watched a very interesting documentary about Hillary Clinton and Donald Trump that I found on the YouTube. It's called The Choice 2016 made by Frontline which I think is a PBS show being that they are the ones that are hosting the video. The thing I like about it is that I didn't feel that it was fear-based, there are no undertones of conspiracy, no finger pointing or side picking. From what I saw, this is an impartial documentary about the history of these two people that, whether I like it or not, one of who will most likely become our next president.

Dateline 10-6-2016

I don't know why I am so tired today but I can barely focus or get anything done. I woke up around the same time that I normally do feeling a little hungover even though it's been over a week since consuming my last adult beverage. I managed to muscle my way through my day job but have been sitting at the computer trying to come up with anything to write about in this post so I can head back over to my bed to get in a nap.

Dateline 10-5-2016

Yesterday ended up being to eventless that I have nothing to say. Granted I've been attempting to make something out of nothing ever since losing my social circle but in general, I can usually find something to ramble about to fill a page. Today is going to be one of those days that I really have to stretch to accomplish this task.

Dateline 10-4-2016

Last night I accidentally stumbled on to the Julian Assange letdown on the YouTube. Though I was disappointed by the lack of information, I was still a little entertained.

Dateline 10-3-2016

I think I need to revisit some of the habits that I developed back when I was doing the 365 Days of Resolution experiment because looking back, I see the benefits now that I've fallen back to my old ways. 

Dateline 10-2-2016

Yesterday ended up being a great transition out of the way I was feeling for a majority of last week. I woke up nice and early and since it wasn't a work day I was able to waste some time on the YouTube for a while as I thought about what I wanted to write for my Daily Breaker post.

Dateline 10-1-2016

Alright, I think I've got politics out of my system... well at least to a point where it's not on the top of my mind to the point where I'm starting to feel sane again. Yesterday I went to work on my next Android App lesson, having taken a day off after finishing my latest assignment, and rather than having the rambling rants of political pundits, I opted to have funny YouTube videos playing in the background as I worked.

Dateline 9-30-2016

.I don't know why it took me this long to figure out why I've been feeling down lately, but again, that's the fun of having a sneaky disorder like depression. For the past month or two, I've made an active attempt to avoid doom and gloom based entertainment. This mainly means that I've been avoiding the news and minimalize how much I follow this year's election. 

Dateline 9-29-2016

I'm going through another phase where I just don't have anything to say so bear with me while I ride it out. I'm less concerned about this than I would be in the past because I've been posting these daily letters to no one for close to two years now. 

Dateline 9-28-2016

I don't know why but I woke up feeling exhausted today. I went to sleep earlier than usual and even slept solidly throughout the night but just had no energy when the time came to arise and start the day. The thing that sucks is that it feels like its triggering depression in me when I've been feeling fine for quite a while.