Dateline 9-2-2017

One of the positive things about this oppressive heat is that it's led me to catch up on a lot of sleep as I've turned to slumber to escape the sweatier parts of the day. Not only have I been sleeping from the moment that I get my daily obligations done until the sun goes down, but I've also been getting a solid night's worth of sleep to the point where I fear the insomnia that is building up from all of this rest.

Dateline 9-1-2017

Last week I felt I was doing a lot better with my Daily Breaker posts. Not only did I feel that these writings act as a daily update as to what I am up to but I felt I was getting into a good groove of exploring my thoughts to where I was breaking away from the journal/diary entry format that I default to when I feel low energy or less inspired.

Dateline 8-31-2017

As weird as the world continues to grow, I can't help but think about the fact that this planet has always felt foreign to me even in the goodest of good ol' days when the rest of Earth's citizens didn't seem to also fear that the sky is falling. At least in those days that were considered good and ol' the rest of the world's calm was a bit comforting in that I felt that I was just insane and that the majority of the rest of the world actually had it all figured out.

Dateline 8-30-2017

I think I'm just going to make this a quick one because I don't really have all that much to say and don't feel like I have the rambling powers that I usually do to be able to just start a topic and see where it ends up taking me. This isn't a bad thing, I'm just transitioning back to an earlier start following two weeks of sleeping in. 

Dateline 8-29-2017

Last night, I ended up throwing up for non-booze related reasons for the first time since I don't know when. I'm not really sure what it was due to because I was feeling perfectly fine all day without a hint of an issue only to lose my dinner right before going to bed. Even when it happened, there was just a quick feeling of unease followed by the release and within five minutes of finishing, I felt perfectly fine again.

Dateline 8-28-2017

Alright, I'm getting a pretty late start to my day once again, but this time it is a good thing as I started the day cleaning up my space after neglecting it for about two weeks as I navigated a very unbalanced dance with depression, overcompensating productivity, coping with reality and ambitious planning as the stars to this one man show playing out in my head.

Dateline 8-27-2017

Back when I was living in Seattle, if you were to tell me that I would eventually evolve to enjoy movies, I would have punched you in the mouth, but here we are, Sunday morning at 6:30 in the AM and I am perfectly happy to be a wake and working, ready to face the day.

Dateline 8-26-2017

I don't know what is going on with my head today. I feel extremely bored, more so than normal and my usual go-to distractions don't sound appealing to me at this time. It is Saturday, so I may just go ahead and treat it like a weekend even though every day bears the same weight when living the freelance life, especially at times like this when my work has run dry leading me to start to feel burnt out on my personal projects, which is probably why I feel like I'm sliding into a slump and probably why weekends were created in the first place.

Dateline 8-25-2017

Yesterday afternoon I bought a box of wine in an effort to combat internal boredom. This resulted in me verbally vomiting all over my social media in a way that hasn't happened in quite a while. Usually when this happens, it goes unnoticed and I delete my posts first thing in the morning before anyone has a chance to respond but that just because I usually ramble on about old school hip hop or TV from the '80s.

Dateline 8-24-2017

Have you ever had one of those dreams that were so good and felt so real that you wake up and can't help but be bummed out to be back in reality? That happened to me last night and now I'm stuck in this weird head space where I'm filled with fantasy thinking of how the dream must have continued on while my mood is also growing somber as the vivid details rapidly disappear as my brain realizes that these events didn't happen and never will.

Dateline 8-23-2017

In yesterday's Daily Breaker post I pointed out that I was losing my interest in yet another one of my favorite past times. In this case, I was talking about losing my obsession with Doom and Gloom videos on the internet which may actually be a positive change because maybe my morbid fascination with what seems to be a declining world shouldn't be continually fed. Even though I don't watch these documentaries as a true believer, the potential underlying evils being conveyed is enough to drive a person insane and that when you look at it through a lens of pure fiction.

Dateline 8-22-2017

Over the past couple days leading up to the eclipse, I started to share my interest in the occult/supernatural. In these post, I tried to explain that I am more interested in the concepts being thrown around of alternate explanations as to what is going on in this world. I also tapped into the fact that I have a morbid fascination with the idea that others might use these uncommon natural events to push forward their own agenda by playing off other's fears.

Dateline 8-21-2017

It turns out that taking yesterday off may have been a bad idea. For one, the only things that I was taking a break from in the first place were my own personal projects that I actually enjoy doing, so instead of killing time while making progress, yesterday ended up being a complete waste of time. This leads to my second problem where I now feel a tad bit out of practice leading to a slower ramp up to the start of my day rather than already feeling warmed up from the day before.

Dateline 8-20-2017

Last night at around 11:30 in the PM I completed Phase III of my prep-work plan for my SNL review challenge. Phase III included; creating and adding the header image, which I made the dumb mistake of making it so that it's slightly different every day, capturing and adding an image of the host from their monolog performance, capturing and adding the end of the night SNL graphic featuring the host and a fancy background, add all the tags and finally, adjust the future web address to include the episode number, host and original air date.

Dateline 8-19-2017

WARNING: This week, I've been attempting to write about more than just what I did yesterday and though I don't think this is the best of my efforts, this is what I managed to come up with. I feel that the seed of my actual thought is here but I can't help but feel that it is missing something to where it's not as clear as I want so I figured I'd post it with this opening note because I don't have the time to scrap this post and start over.

Dateline 8-18-2017

I can't believe it's already Friday again. This week really has blown by just like the last three years. Now that I have no social life, the blending of days has seemed to quicken to where I can no longer tell what happened yesterday from what happened three months ago.

Dateline 8-17-2017

Yesterday I was listening to one of my favorite podcasts called The Complete Guide To Everything which is a show I discovered what seems to be at least a decade ago back when I discovered the podcast medium. I found the show back when I was living a nine to five life and was allowed to wear headphones at work and was looking for a show similar to Stuff You Should Know in order to have another informative but fun distraction to get through the otherwise boring workday.

Dateline 8-16-2017

Do you ever wonder if the chaos we are currently going through is actually the results of the December 21, 2012, End Of The World Prophecies? I don't know if "prophecy" is the proper term as the magical date was just the end of the Mayans long count calendar cycle that then repeats just like we have a new January every year. Any added value of doom and gloom attached to this date did take place until the society in question had already met their end meaning if this was their own predictive tool, their calibration was WAY OFF.

Dateline 8-15-2017

From time to time I check in with these Daily Breaker posts to restate my intentions with this website. In fact, I just did this last week and as always the three main reasons are to maintain a daily writing routine, publish said writing so it doesn't just sit in my drawer as a draft, and finally, force me to practice writing in standard prose until I find my writer's voice to turn this from a hobby into something that could potentially support my minimalist life without having to give in to normalcy.

Dateline 8-14-2017

What is a person to do when they are stuck in a game that they don't want to play and there is absolutely no way to escape the reach of the rules no matter where you try to go on a planet that's falling apart?