Dateline 4-15-2017

Alright, this is going to be a bit of a potpourri of an update. First off, my fears turned out to be true and the new stronger weed... oops, I mean "meds," didn't help to get me back to sleeping solidly throughout the night. It sucks because when I first got it, I took a few tokes and felt a high as if I hadn't been smoking for weeks.

Dateline 4-14-2017

Alright, my next batch of "sleep aid" has been ordered and is on its way to my house as I type. That said, I'm starting to get nervous that it might not be the solution to my sleep issue that I am currently struggling with. Last night, I bought some over the counter sleeping pills to see if it would send me into a solid slumber, using my "meds" to initially put me down.

Dateline 4-13-2017

One more night of shitty sleep before I get to test to see if I've figured out my cure thanks to the help of my trusty Fitbit. It all started a couple weeks ago when I switched to a cheap brand of medical vaporizer cartridge. The dispensary had a deal going for five where you were pretty much getting one for free. Being that I was broke and that this would be over a month supply I had to give it a shot.

Dateline 4-12-2017

I was really hoping that this week was going to be an inverse of the last where I started out optimistic only to have the rug pulled out from under me that comes from the depression that comes with poor sleep. I thought that maybe this week would be the week that I turn it around again as these dips in enthusiasm definitely don't last as long as they used to.

Dateline 4-11-2017

Where last week I started out very optimistic only to have my enthusiasm slowly drain and the week went on, yesterday, I wrote the most pessimistic post that I've written here in a while which I'm hoping was enough to get at least some of the negativity out of my system.

Dateline 4-10-2017

I think I've finally reached that point of no return, get over it, you're old and this is how it's going to be from here on out stage of life. Granted, I've been feeling the evolution since I turned thirty but back then I held on to as much of my youth as I could, swearing I could beat the systems if I could only get discovered as a writer.

Dateline 4-9-2017

I don't know what happened to me about two weeks ago but my quality of sleep has been horrible lately and I'm really starting to feel it. It's not really that I'm struggling to go to sleep like I'm used to when dealing with insomnia. No, I still go to sleep around the same time and wake on my regular schedule as well, but I wake feeling like garbage and my Fitbit is now saying I'm restless throughout the night.

Dateline 4-8-2017

It feels like it was at least a month and a half ago when I shared that I was contacted with a job offer that said I would start as soon as the position was officially available which should take no more than two weeks.

Dateline 4-7-2017

I am either so close to finally qualifying for the perfect work-from-home job that would fit my needs or I am real close to finding out that it is actually too good to be true landing me back at square one.

Dateline 4-6-2017

Yesterday I learned of the passing of one of my best friends from my early 20s when the two of us where twin monsters in almost every possible way. I am 6'4", he was 6'6" and at the time we were both pushing or just passed 300lbs. We both had a very high tolerance for booze and drank like every day was an end of the world party and wanted to celebrate until the very end.

Dateline 4-5-2017

Time for another garden update!!!

Dateline 4-4-2017

Yesterday may have been the lost day that I needed to reset my system. If you've been following this post, I started out last week with a flash of optimism only to spiral into a restless sleep schedule that left me feeling extremely drained.

Dateline 4-3-2017

Oh my god, I feel like I'm about to die from exhaustion. As I've been complaining all week, I've had a horrible time getting sleep this week so I thought I would solve the problem with a box of wine. 

Dateline 4-2-2017

Well, I tried to make yesterday a day of nothing but apparently, the universe had other mundane plans. It's not that the world piled on extra stressors or work, I just couldn't land in a groove to where I could efficiently manage my time. 

Dateline 4-1-2017

Why am I being tortured with sleepless nights again???

Dateline 3-31-2017

Oh my god, I am so sick of the current state of technology. 

Dateline 3-30-2017

Argh, what the hell is going on with my sleep? I'm beginning to think that I shouldn't have pointed out how optimistic and great I was feeling on Monday because I haven't been able to sleep ever since. That said, I'm still feeling optimistic, I just currently don't have the energy to focus enough to implement any of my plans.

Dateline 3-29-2017

You know how I was saying that I was super tired when I check in yesterday? Probably not because I doubt that I have anyone that follows the through line of these posts about my day to day life. Anyways, I've been tired because I stayed up for two days straight in order to work as many hours as I could for a job I landed on the weekend.

Dateline 3-28-2017

Holly crap my sleep has been terrible for the past couple days. According to my Fitbit, I slept about four hours last night with fifty minutes of that being restless or awake for a moment or two. The night before that was a little longer but just as interrupted and then two days before that was when I stayed up for two days to work.

Dateline 3-27-2017

I don't really know why but I'm feeling pretty optimistic about this week and not in the fake it until you make it sort of way that I most often feel a positive outlook on life. A big part of it has to do with working a legitimate gig that will earn me a full week's paycheck for the first time in a while.